Since I last blogged so much has happened! The LORD told me to write a newsletter, which is good. But it is hard for me to not get into deep details! :) But I was obedient! It was good. I was thinking about support letters, but the newsletter works out so much better! Miss Amy suggested it, it is our story and it comes so much easier than, "Hey would you like to give money." The LORD has been dealing with me about pride. Don't you hate it when HE shows you something really ucky about yourself? I have been praying that HE helps me fix it. I honestly thought in the beginning that we would sell everything, come back here and both get jobs. That we would pay everything ourselves. I never imagined that we would have donations. I don't like to bother people. Did you know that you can bless someone by allowing them to sow into something that you are doing? WOW. I sure didn't know that till JESUS told me! HE is so smart!
We also have buyers for our house, so that is another reason I haven't blogged for a while. We are close to being done. Really close! I pray it happens soon! It will be nice to have our den back, for whatever time we do! The sweet friends that our buying our house are precious! I just can't be more thankful for them! We didn't even put a for sale sign up! That is ALL JESUS! I have been praying for them that JESUS would bless them with sweet babies!! They are both so beautiful, inside and out. And it will bless us so much to have believers buy this house!! What an honor that they will pray, and raise their babies here!! That this will be a house of life! How awesome! I have to be honest, it has been a little bitter sweet for me though. More so than I ever thought that it would be. I mean we have lived here for 8 years, and we have worked so hard to get it so right and now we are going to sell it to someone else. Counting the cost is something that we have done. It is high, but HE is worthy! What would you let keep you from running after JESUS? Well, we are supposed to sell it all. Also, today I listed the King Kong size bedroom set on Craigs list. Please pray with me that it sells quickly. We are supposed to be getting a quote on tickets within the next few days. Jay gets his bonus next Friday, it would be nice if we sold the bed and possibly had enough money for the plane tickets then! Praise GOD! HE can do it!!! This house is going to turn over quickly. I can't wait to see how HE works it out!. I also packed my first box today. :) I packed a box of year books and the pictures that we wanted to keep. We can't get these back, it is amazing how much stuff we have. And I am not for sure what we are supposed to do with any of it. I just keep hearing the word simplify, so we are going to take a step and get rid of it all! WOW, Please pray for me, as this part has been harder than I thought it would be. :) Pressing forward is important though.
Jay had a talk with Misty and Hunter on Friday. He insisted that Hunter be there. It was good. Hunter has been playing them against each other. He is supposed to be coming over this next weekend though. We are praying about this. We aren't supposed to say anything else about him supposed to be with us or Africa, or him lying about it. LORD, please help us to remember it isn't Hunter we are upset with. This isn't a physical battle. It is a Spiritual one. We are so blessed, thank YOU JESUS for allowing us to see how to pray. How many people don't get to see that. We can't save Hunter, but JESUS can. So we can pray to JESUS to save Hunter!
The LORD showed me a verse yesterday in Ecc. 3, there is a time to keep and a time to throw away. It is time to throw away, clean out, get rid of. Just like the stuff inside me, it is time for a purging. Just like we flush the old stuff in the toilet, we must flush the old stuff out of us! Praise GOD we don't have to keep that stuff in there and become Spiritually constipated! (David Wagner said that). It was funny! :) Till next time.......
Monday, March 5, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
can I just say wow.....
It has been a while since I have written. It doesn't mean that things have been quiet. It has just been hard to find the balance. JESUS is worth is all though! On last Sunday we showed the house. Did I mention that we haven't put a for sale sign in the yard? JESUS can do anything with nothing. I am painting the last bedroom and Mr. David is coming over here on Monday to work on the trim. Jay is on call and can't take off but I can help him. Praise GOD, I am going to learn about putting up trim! Haha!
I put a cabinet on Craigs list and within a few hours I had someone email about buying it. She came and looked at it yesterday and I am going to take it to her today. Emily is going to ride with me. :) What a sweet new friend JESUS has given me.
Last night (Thursday) we went downtown and instead of bible study we had a special speaker, David Wagner. WOW. We had worship on Thursday. Did you know that you can worship the LORD any day of the week? I wrote down some notes. Rev 12:11. And they have defeated him (satan) by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die. WOW. When you tell your story, GOD reveals HIS GLORY! When I tell on myself then the devil has nothing to use against me. Matthew 13:44. The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field. Did you know that you are the treasure in the field? GOD is the man, and HE would bankrupt Heaven just for you! He said that everyone in the room would raise the dead before they were dead. When you dilute the Word of GOD you pollute it. Don't compromise, don't HELP GOD. (that one was for me for sure) Enter the Glory zone! Church had really become entertainment for me. That was a shock. I can plead the blood over things! The same Holy Spirit that raised JESUS from the dead lives inside me! WOW. Don't devalue the name of JESUS! HE is alive!!!! Declare HIS great name! No lies, no compromise! Wake up church! A diamond is a piece of coal that stayed on the job! Revelation 21:4 HE will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying of pain. All these things are gone forever. That doesn't say that they will be gone forever, it says that they are gone forever! Praise GOD! Thank YOU JESUS! All things will become new, even you! It is done! Everyone in the room will have an Ezekiel 37 anointing. WOW, a valley of dry bones! Who would want to go to a valley of dry bones on purpose? The LORD takes you to places that you don't want to go. Listen for the rattling and shaking of the bones! Don't you hear it? The constipated church needs Holy Spirit exlax! We have become a nation who loves to receive. But we must give! We have had a drive through mindset. We have a whole city of people who have death by disappointment on their graves. People here have been buried alive, but we can dig them out! BUT GOD! Where most people put a period, GOD puts a comma. What you thought was over, GOD is putting a comma there. GOD doesn't call the qualified, HE qualifies the called. Accept the call, Accept the Mantle. And remember when we are rejected by family and friends it is because GOD has called us! GOD heals our hope! It can happen here! Speak life over Jackson, Mississippi in the mighty name of JESUS! Don't stop believing because you can't see it! Many are called but few are chosen, means many are called, but few choose to step into what HE has chosen them to be! Be who HE has called you to be! Stop waiting for someone else, you are the somebody else! What has buried you alive? Fear can have no place in me! How can I change the world? By loving one person at a time! We should all believe in what HE says! There is an urgency in the earth! GOD has activated an anointing to go deeper. (JESUS has been speaking this word to me a lot lately). Tell the people to get ready for GOD'S breath! Forgiveness is key! The events of my past, being molested, used, hurt, lied to, shooed away, those events ushered me into the presence of the LORD! Remember you were never bad, you were just broken. Genesis 37. The story of Joseph, GOD is going to do something brand new in you! (In me!) John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. Right now step into the abundant life! Don't compromise the message, just the method. This is what I jotted down as David Wagner was talking. Then we started praying and he prayed somethings over people and I got some of it down, but I was completely undone. Barbie, your have to's will become want to's. Healing in her body. Teacher. Star, she has the keys, and is a jail breaker, a liberator, and a faithful friend. Jeff, full of prophetic gift, not a prophet. Unwrap HIS Word, visionary. Sons of Issachar. He is a father of the faith. Celebration of life. Hebrews 10. Cloud of witnesses, and permission has been granted. Youth ministry. You are sold out! Youthfulness into 80's, running with children. What you are building is for your children and grandchildren. Mama, TOTAL healing for Joe, bike ministry, Grace will be granted. Me, wow, I wasn't even expecting him to pray over me. He said that I was being given a boldness, and the words I'm sorry were going to be wiped from my vocabulary. Quit apologizing for everything. The LORD has given me a roaring lion anointing!? The season of waiting is over!!!!! WOW!!! GOD has heard my prayers and my whole family will be saved! By name, sister, brothers, aunts and uncles! The LORD has taught me to be a daughter, a wife, and a mother, now HE is going to make me a mother to nations!? All in the room will now have an Isiah 58 anointing! Strength and courage! We Will Go will see a total turn around and a fortress for families, satan is scared and running! Unification by fortification. This year many fathers will come to the LORD! Families will be transformed and whole households will come running to JESUS. We Will Go will have access to the excess. Bulidings and a food ministry feeding two hot meals a day. WOW GOD! There's that comma! :)
I put a cabinet on Craigs list and within a few hours I had someone email about buying it. She came and looked at it yesterday and I am going to take it to her today. Emily is going to ride with me. :) What a sweet new friend JESUS has given me.
Last night (Thursday) we went downtown and instead of bible study we had a special speaker, David Wagner. WOW. We had worship on Thursday. Did you know that you can worship the LORD any day of the week? I wrote down some notes. Rev 12:11. And they have defeated him (satan) by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die. WOW. When you tell your story, GOD reveals HIS GLORY! When I tell on myself then the devil has nothing to use against me. Matthew 13:44. The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field. Did you know that you are the treasure in the field? GOD is the man, and HE would bankrupt Heaven just for you! He said that everyone in the room would raise the dead before they were dead. When you dilute the Word of GOD you pollute it. Don't compromise, don't HELP GOD. (that one was for me for sure) Enter the Glory zone! Church had really become entertainment for me. That was a shock. I can plead the blood over things! The same Holy Spirit that raised JESUS from the dead lives inside me! WOW. Don't devalue the name of JESUS! HE is alive!!!! Declare HIS great name! No lies, no compromise! Wake up church! A diamond is a piece of coal that stayed on the job! Revelation 21:4 HE will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying of pain. All these things are gone forever. That doesn't say that they will be gone forever, it says that they are gone forever! Praise GOD! Thank YOU JESUS! All things will become new, even you! It is done! Everyone in the room will have an Ezekiel 37 anointing. WOW, a valley of dry bones! Who would want to go to a valley of dry bones on purpose? The LORD takes you to places that you don't want to go. Listen for the rattling and shaking of the bones! Don't you hear it? The constipated church needs Holy Spirit exlax! We have become a nation who loves to receive. But we must give! We have had a drive through mindset. We have a whole city of people who have death by disappointment on their graves. People here have been buried alive, but we can dig them out! BUT GOD! Where most people put a period, GOD puts a comma. What you thought was over, GOD is putting a comma there. GOD doesn't call the qualified, HE qualifies the called. Accept the call, Accept the Mantle. And remember when we are rejected by family and friends it is because GOD has called us! GOD heals our hope! It can happen here! Speak life over Jackson, Mississippi in the mighty name of JESUS! Don't stop believing because you can't see it! Many are called but few are chosen, means many are called, but few choose to step into what HE has chosen them to be! Be who HE has called you to be! Stop waiting for someone else, you are the somebody else! What has buried you alive? Fear can have no place in me! How can I change the world? By loving one person at a time! We should all believe in what HE says! There is an urgency in the earth! GOD has activated an anointing to go deeper. (JESUS has been speaking this word to me a lot lately). Tell the people to get ready for GOD'S breath! Forgiveness is key! The events of my past, being molested, used, hurt, lied to, shooed away, those events ushered me into the presence of the LORD! Remember you were never bad, you were just broken. Genesis 37. The story of Joseph, GOD is going to do something brand new in you! (In me!) John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. Right now step into the abundant life! Don't compromise the message, just the method. This is what I jotted down as David Wagner was talking. Then we started praying and he prayed somethings over people and I got some of it down, but I was completely undone. Barbie, your have to's will become want to's. Healing in her body. Teacher. Star, she has the keys, and is a jail breaker, a liberator, and a faithful friend. Jeff, full of prophetic gift, not a prophet. Unwrap HIS Word, visionary. Sons of Issachar. He is a father of the faith. Celebration of life. Hebrews 10. Cloud of witnesses, and permission has been granted. Youth ministry. You are sold out! Youthfulness into 80's, running with children. What you are building is for your children and grandchildren. Mama, TOTAL healing for Joe, bike ministry, Grace will be granted. Me, wow, I wasn't even expecting him to pray over me. He said that I was being given a boldness, and the words I'm sorry were going to be wiped from my vocabulary. Quit apologizing for everything. The LORD has given me a roaring lion anointing!? The season of waiting is over!!!!! WOW!!! GOD has heard my prayers and my whole family will be saved! By name, sister, brothers, aunts and uncles! The LORD has taught me to be a daughter, a wife, and a mother, now HE is going to make me a mother to nations!? All in the room will now have an Isiah 58 anointing! Strength and courage! We Will Go will see a total turn around and a fortress for families, satan is scared and running! Unification by fortification. This year many fathers will come to the LORD! Families will be transformed and whole households will come running to JESUS. We Will Go will have access to the excess. Bulidings and a food ministry feeding two hot meals a day. WOW GOD! There's that comma! :)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Well.........
It just dawned on me that I am not numbering days anymore. We are still fasting. I did straight water for 6 days, Jay went 9 days. Then we had smoothies and now he is doing 1 meal of soft soup a day, and I am doing dry fiber cereal for breakfast, salad for lunch and soft soup with him for dinner. I plan on fasting for a while like this. Maybe till we go to Africa. Not being legalistic about it, but still pushing forward. The really cool thing is that GOD speaks! And we are getting prepared for our next journey!
We got our acceptance letter on Friday from Harvest school!!! We were so excited!! We were on our way downtown to meet, encourage, and feed some missionaries! How amazing, neither one of us can stop smiling!! We knew that we were going, cause GOD said so, but now man says so too! WOW, thank you JESUS!! Gillian is here also, and she is amazing! She will be the one to pick us up from the airport in Mozambique! WOW! GOD always knows!! :)
We had a talk with Misty, it was very awkward. Hunter wasn't there, which I felt like was on purpose. But only JESUS will know, cause I don't feel that she would ever admit it. She didn't say a whole lot, she just laid on the couch while Jay talked. I didn't talk much, but there were a couple of things that she said that were so wrong, it just went through me. Like that Hunter wasn't right enough with GOD to do something like that. We won't be right enough with GOD until we get to Heaven! We are all sinners! Did you know that there is nothing that you can ever, ever, ever, ever do that would earn your way into Heaven? You can go to church every day of the week and it wouldn't make you clean enough. When people encountered JESUS in the bible, they were radically changed. The demon possessed man, the woman with the issue of blood, the little girl who was dead. All were totally transformed by JESUS! So we talked to her on Saturday night and then on Monday we got a long text message from her saying this, God is not a God of deceit and confusion. I felt nothing but deceived and confused the other night. First of all that you even mentioned it to Hunter without asking me first. Second to be so bold as to say God would tell you and not me....or I don't know....even Hunter! I talked to him about it. Not saying anything about y'all at first. I simply asked him if he felt God is calling him to Africa. Without a moments hesitation he said truthfully momma...no. Not right now but Daddy and Ms Laura keep asking me to go every time I go over there. I don't appreciate y'all putting Hunter in a tough spot of having to feel obligated to do something you feel led about. Like God is not going to tell Hunter. Bottom line....he's not going and we aren't getting a passport either. I feel deceived and I'm sure not taking a chance by getting his passport. It's my job to make these decisions for him. I'm his mom. Don't put him in an awkward position by bringing this back up to him. Think about it....why don't he come over there? JESUS, I truly pray your peace for her. I can't imagine as a mother how this must have made her feel. If I didn't know JESUS like I do now, it wouldn't happen for my daughters to be going with Jay and I to a foreign country! But JESUS said our family would be restored and unified. Satan will have to give the things back that the locusts ate! She hit a cheap shot with the reason that he doesn't want to come over here. For months she has been saying that it had nothing to do with us, so now she has been caught in a lie. Also, Hunter hasn't been over here very much since May. And I only briefly saw him for about 20 minutes when we went to pick him up from school so that he could go hunting with Jerry, I mean Jay hasn't seen Hunter since Christmas! And Hunter was only over here for 1 day! We never said that GOD didn't talk to her. And Jay told her, we have prayed and fasted about it, both of us! It wasn't our plan for Hunter to go either! But GOD brought so much peace about him going that we registered him. And we did pay his deposit. Which was a crazy step of faith for us!! And we also will go forward and pay his tuition in full, and we won't stop, but our plan is to be right in GOD'S will. Hunter sent text messages on Sunday night saying he couldn't wait to see us this next weekend?? He said that he had picked up his bible and started reading Romans, and that JESUS had showed him what was wrong in his life. I am so confused, someone is lying. I don't know who it is, nor do I care. :) They are lying to themselves, this is for GOD'S Glory and Honor, not mine for sure! We never thought that we would be sitting right here right now. We are almost done with the house, and we are going to sell it and get on that plane and we really don't know what our lives will look like after that! But I know that at the end of the day it is absolutely worth every hard time, every sad day, every brick wall. He is worth it all! David was over here yesterday helping Jay with the trim, and he really encouraged Jay and I both. GOD wants to do something incredible in Hunter's life! In all of our lives! But we have the choice to say no. I find it interesting that HE gave us a will that strong! WOW, I don't want to wrestle with HIM anymore. I just want to do what HE wants me to do. And with everything that I have inside me, I believe that is to believe HIM that Hunter will be with us on that plane to Africa, and it will be with her blessing! GOD gave that to Jay and I both. So last night we paid our deposits, and we just believe GOD! All day something tugged at me, when we were running full force after the devil, no one, not even our so called church friends cared. But when we start running with everything that we have after JESUS all of a sudden that isn't good enough. I really don't understand, most of our old church friends, even Misty don't understand our lives now. But GOD showed me yesterday in HIS word this scripture. Exodus 14:4 (This is the LORD talking) And once again I will harden Pharaoh's heart, and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display MY Glory through Pharaoh and his whole army. After this the Egyptians will know that I am the LORD! So the Israelites camped there as they were told. Well, maybe GOD is doing this to display HIS Glory to her? Maybe HE is trying to teach us something? I don't know, but I do know that I love HIM! And I will do what I was told. To pay his deposit, and to believe! What an honor to stand on this side of the Red Sea! Think about it, if they had never stepped out into the sea, it would have no reason to part! LORD, I will walk through the sea, I will wait for you to part the waters and not try to that figure out myself!
We got our acceptance letter on Friday from Harvest school!!! We were so excited!! We were on our way downtown to meet, encourage, and feed some missionaries! How amazing, neither one of us can stop smiling!! We knew that we were going, cause GOD said so, but now man says so too! WOW, thank you JESUS!! Gillian is here also, and she is amazing! She will be the one to pick us up from the airport in Mozambique! WOW! GOD always knows!! :)
We had a talk with Misty, it was very awkward. Hunter wasn't there, which I felt like was on purpose. But only JESUS will know, cause I don't feel that she would ever admit it. She didn't say a whole lot, she just laid on the couch while Jay talked. I didn't talk much, but there were a couple of things that she said that were so wrong, it just went through me. Like that Hunter wasn't right enough with GOD to do something like that. We won't be right enough with GOD until we get to Heaven! We are all sinners! Did you know that there is nothing that you can ever, ever, ever, ever do that would earn your way into Heaven? You can go to church every day of the week and it wouldn't make you clean enough. When people encountered JESUS in the bible, they were radically changed. The demon possessed man, the woman with the issue of blood, the little girl who was dead. All were totally transformed by JESUS! So we talked to her on Saturday night and then on Monday we got a long text message from her saying this, God is not a God of deceit and confusion. I felt nothing but deceived and confused the other night. First of all that you even mentioned it to Hunter without asking me first. Second to be so bold as to say God would tell you and not me....or I don't know....even Hunter! I talked to him about it. Not saying anything about y'all at first. I simply asked him if he felt God is calling him to Africa. Without a moments hesitation he said truthfully momma...no. Not right now but Daddy and Ms Laura keep asking me to go every time I go over there. I don't appreciate y'all putting Hunter in a tough spot of having to feel obligated to do something you feel led about. Like God is not going to tell Hunter. Bottom line....he's not going and we aren't getting a passport either. I feel deceived and I'm sure not taking a chance by getting his passport. It's my job to make these decisions for him. I'm his mom. Don't put him in an awkward position by bringing this back up to him. Think about it....why don't he come over there? JESUS, I truly pray your peace for her. I can't imagine as a mother how this must have made her feel. If I didn't know JESUS like I do now, it wouldn't happen for my daughters to be going with Jay and I to a foreign country! But JESUS said our family would be restored and unified. Satan will have to give the things back that the locusts ate! She hit a cheap shot with the reason that he doesn't want to come over here. For months she has been saying that it had nothing to do with us, so now she has been caught in a lie. Also, Hunter hasn't been over here very much since May. And I only briefly saw him for about 20 minutes when we went to pick him up from school so that he could go hunting with Jerry, I mean Jay hasn't seen Hunter since Christmas! And Hunter was only over here for 1 day! We never said that GOD didn't talk to her. And Jay told her, we have prayed and fasted about it, both of us! It wasn't our plan for Hunter to go either! But GOD brought so much peace about him going that we registered him. And we did pay his deposit. Which was a crazy step of faith for us!! And we also will go forward and pay his tuition in full, and we won't stop, but our plan is to be right in GOD'S will. Hunter sent text messages on Sunday night saying he couldn't wait to see us this next weekend?? He said that he had picked up his bible and started reading Romans, and that JESUS had showed him what was wrong in his life. I am so confused, someone is lying. I don't know who it is, nor do I care. :) They are lying to themselves, this is for GOD'S Glory and Honor, not mine for sure! We never thought that we would be sitting right here right now. We are almost done with the house, and we are going to sell it and get on that plane and we really don't know what our lives will look like after that! But I know that at the end of the day it is absolutely worth every hard time, every sad day, every brick wall. He is worth it all! David was over here yesterday helping Jay with the trim, and he really encouraged Jay and I both. GOD wants to do something incredible in Hunter's life! In all of our lives! But we have the choice to say no. I find it interesting that HE gave us a will that strong! WOW, I don't want to wrestle with HIM anymore. I just want to do what HE wants me to do. And with everything that I have inside me, I believe that is to believe HIM that Hunter will be with us on that plane to Africa, and it will be with her blessing! GOD gave that to Jay and I both. So last night we paid our deposits, and we just believe GOD! All day something tugged at me, when we were running full force after the devil, no one, not even our so called church friends cared. But when we start running with everything that we have after JESUS all of a sudden that isn't good enough. I really don't understand, most of our old church friends, even Misty don't understand our lives now. But GOD showed me yesterday in HIS word this scripture. Exodus 14:4 (This is the LORD talking) And once again I will harden Pharaoh's heart, and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display MY Glory through Pharaoh and his whole army. After this the Egyptians will know that I am the LORD! So the Israelites camped there as they were told. Well, maybe GOD is doing this to display HIS Glory to her? Maybe HE is trying to teach us something? I don't know, but I do know that I love HIM! And I will do what I was told. To pay his deposit, and to believe! What an honor to stand on this side of the Red Sea! Think about it, if they had never stepped out into the sea, it would have no reason to part! LORD, I will walk through the sea, I will wait for you to part the waters and not try to that figure out myself!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
blessings?? Or not??
Today as I was taking a shower and getting dressed I was looking around. GOD really hit me with something, are the things that I have always looked at and called them my blessings really blessings?? Or are they burdens brought on by satan?? Hmm......I decided to break down a few and see how they rack up producing fruits of the Spirit. According to Galatians 5:22-23 says "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control." Looking at each, and what kind of fruit I produce through each proposed "Blessing." My husband and children, definitely from GOD, they bless me daily with so much, love, laughter, joy, peace, goodness. Sometimes I pray a lot about the patience, gentleness and self control, just kidding!! Hahaha, I did mention that I home school Gabby and Maggy right?? Jay's job? Hmmmm, I have always thought that it was a blessing from GOD that he had the job. But when I look at it from a Kingdom perspective, it keeps him away from us so much. Last night, he came in from work late, dinner was ready and before we even sat down he got paged out and as soon as he finished he had to leave. So he left about 6:30 and got home about 10:30. He asked for next week off but his boss turned it down, not to be ugly to Jay, but they just have so much going on. So, I ask again, blessing or burden?? Hmmm..... House?? Well, we have a house payment, so we are a slave to the mortgage company. Blessing or burden?? Van?? Which thank the Good LORD HIMSELF we only have one! We have a van payment of 356.00 a month. Slave to the lender, Blessing or burden?? That HUGE king size bedroom suite that we bought almost 4 years ago and paid (cough, cough) $5000.00 for, we made payments for 2 years! Blessing or burden?? The LORD is giving me some new eyes to see with. And everything is looking a lot different today. The things in this house do not give me joy the way that they used to. I long to be free from it. I long to be free to run after JESUS! I pray that HE takes these burdens from us before we leave for Africa. We are still praying about what to do when we come back. We do believe that we will come back for a season possibly. Because Hunter will be with us. Where will we live? I don't know that we can live anywhere cheaper than we live here. I am not sure what we are going to do. Still praying about this. But in HIS time HE will let us know. I am very excited that we are going to get the honor to go to Africa! To go to school and learn from all these people who have lived it, to learn from the very least of these. What an honor!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
One task complete
Well, it has been a pretty busy week so far. GOD has reminded me over and over how faithful HE is. On Monday I was painting and I had to go and get some more paint cause I thought that I was going to run out. Did you know that a little paint goes a LONG way? Well, I kept thinking that I didn't have enough, so I had to go to Lowes. I got my gallon of paint and went to the counter to get it mixed up. There was a young guy that came up and went down the aisle after a man asking if he could help him. I was pretty aggravated because I was standing at the counter first. I thought, well that wasn't right or fair. But I pushed all of that back down, did you know that sometimes we just have to choose to be nice? Like I said, I am still learning. After he came and got what I needed, he went and waited on two other people, while my can just sat there! I thought, well at the end of the day, this isn't going to matter, and JESUS came for everyone in this store. So I chose to be nice again. :) Finally, after what should have been a 10 minute Lowes trip had turned into a 30 minute me standing there with no paint yet. Another guy walks up and starts talking about buying a house, then turns to me and smiles. He is looking for a house to buy. I say, "What area are you looking to buy?" He says, "Oh Pearl." I said, "Oh, well I have a house in Flowood that is about to be put up for sale." Then the other guy, the one who kept looking over me says, "Tell me about your house, cause I am looking for one." So I start telling him about our house, then he asks how much. I just blurted out 175,000. And he says, "Oh wow, I just got pre approved for 180,000. When can I come and look at your house?" He said he may come and look at it today! WOW. JESUS, keep our eyes focused on YOU. YOU will be the one to sell this house, not us! In the meantime, JESUS sent two absolutely beautiful days of almost 70 degree weather in January!! So all the painting of the trim is done. YAAY! Now hopefully next week Jay will take off work and Mr. David can come and get Jay started and we can get this last step done. Last step complete! YAAY!
We are still trying to get to talk Misty. It will be on Saturday before we can talk to her. We have been praying so hard for her. JESUS told me something very clear yesterday. What do I expect? How do I expect this to work? Do I expect change or the same old thing? Well, HE did change me, and HE can change anyone else too. I love her, and my deepest desire is for Hunter to run after JESUS with everything that he has!! I have been thinking about how GOD can use Hunter after Harvest School. 1. Hunter can be completely transformed! 2. Hunter can pour what he has learned into his mama and sisters. 3. Hunter can pour what he learns into Pearl high school! 4. Hunter can pour what he learns into his church. 5. Hunter can pour what he learns into his neighborhood. WOW. Thank YOU JESUS that YOU alone change people!! Nothing is beyond YOUR great hand!!
We are still trying to get to talk Misty. It will be on Saturday before we can talk to her. We have been praying so hard for her. JESUS told me something very clear yesterday. What do I expect? How do I expect this to work? Do I expect change or the same old thing? Well, HE did change me, and HE can change anyone else too. I love her, and my deepest desire is for Hunter to run after JESUS with everything that he has!! I have been thinking about how GOD can use Hunter after Harvest School. 1. Hunter can be completely transformed! 2. Hunter can pour what he has learned into his mama and sisters. 3. Hunter can pour what he learns into Pearl high school! 4. Hunter can pour what he learns into his church. 5. Hunter can pour what he learns into his neighborhood. WOW. Thank YOU JESUS that YOU alone change people!! Nothing is beyond YOUR great hand!!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
GOD speaks!
Well, we finished the first part of our fast yesterday with our We Will Go family. I have to say that it has truly been the hardest fast I have ever done! Last year we went 40 days and it wasn't this hard! It has been opposition since day 1!
Jay has been working a tremendous amount of overtime this past week. It leaves a lot of responsibility on me. JESUS told Jay that HE has got to find a balance, he hasn't been spending time with the kids, or me, because when he gets home from work he is used up and tired. I am really praying for him to find that balance! I know that him leaving his job and us living on faith is going to be so extreme from what we have done in the past, but it will be so good for our family because he can sow into the kids what I can't. I am not meant to be the leader, but the help meet. I led most of our marriage, but that is why we had such opposition. It is Jay's job. I must keep supporting him without taking over. Still really praying through this! But it is getting easier thank YOU JESUS!!
Yesterday we had the sweetest worship! I was really worried about how we were gonna worship for 6 hours, but I was really sad to leave! I could have stayed 6 more hours!! WOW! We came home and Jay and Maggy went to the all night skate, I had weird dreams all night. I don't remember many of them, but I know that we are going to encourage a family to go to Harvest School. I don't know the time line, but we will. Well, Praise GOD! Also JESUS showed Jay and I both that Moses didn't just grab up some Israelites and go to the wilderness. He told them what he was going to do first. Then he told Pharaoh what he was going to do also. HE is a GOD of order, and warning. So tomorrow we are going to go and tell Misty what is going to happen and that Hunter is going with us to Mozambique. I have really been praying for a couple of weeks now for her that JESUS would prepare her heart. I don't have to wonder if it is GOD'S will for Hunter to be with his Daddy, because I know that it is. And GOD said that he was going to live with us. I don't know when, but I believe that GOD is bigger than a mothers love for her son. And I know that Misty loves Hunter a lot. But GOD loves Hunter more than she does, HE made Hunter! I can't imagine how it is going to work out, but I am just hanging onto what JESUS said. WOW. Thank YOU LORD that YOU have truly increased my faith!!! Crazy faith is what I prayed for and HE sure gave it to me! Praise GOD!!
Today we had a very different worship at We Will Go. Amy took most of the chairs out of the pavilion. We stood, we sat on the floor, we laid out on the ground, there was a lot of praise, and some dancing. It was amazing! LORD, please forgive me for putting YOU in a church box. YOU are so much bigger than that! I am so thankful that I am not asleep in the pew anymore! I am so thankful to be awake! There is so much more to JESUS than the hem of HIS garment! I met Millers son afterward, not quite sure what to make of it. He was very nice, well spoken, seemed intelligent. I need to pray for Miller more. I was Miller, WOW. Only by JESUS grace am I a new creation! Praise GOD!
Going to try for finishing up painting trim tomorrow. I must remember to pray hard that rain will not come in Tuesday, but Wednesday instead. That way I can finish! HELP LORD! Also, in 5 months we will be in AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!
Jay has been working a tremendous amount of overtime this past week. It leaves a lot of responsibility on me. JESUS told Jay that HE has got to find a balance, he hasn't been spending time with the kids, or me, because when he gets home from work he is used up and tired. I am really praying for him to find that balance! I know that him leaving his job and us living on faith is going to be so extreme from what we have done in the past, but it will be so good for our family because he can sow into the kids what I can't. I am not meant to be the leader, but the help meet. I led most of our marriage, but that is why we had such opposition. It is Jay's job. I must keep supporting him without taking over. Still really praying through this! But it is getting easier thank YOU JESUS!!
Yesterday we had the sweetest worship! I was really worried about how we were gonna worship for 6 hours, but I was really sad to leave! I could have stayed 6 more hours!! WOW! We came home and Jay and Maggy went to the all night skate, I had weird dreams all night. I don't remember many of them, but I know that we are going to encourage a family to go to Harvest School. I don't know the time line, but we will. Well, Praise GOD! Also JESUS showed Jay and I both that Moses didn't just grab up some Israelites and go to the wilderness. He told them what he was going to do first. Then he told Pharaoh what he was going to do also. HE is a GOD of order, and warning. So tomorrow we are going to go and tell Misty what is going to happen and that Hunter is going with us to Mozambique. I have really been praying for a couple of weeks now for her that JESUS would prepare her heart. I don't have to wonder if it is GOD'S will for Hunter to be with his Daddy, because I know that it is. And GOD said that he was going to live with us. I don't know when, but I believe that GOD is bigger than a mothers love for her son. And I know that Misty loves Hunter a lot. But GOD loves Hunter more than she does, HE made Hunter! I can't imagine how it is going to work out, but I am just hanging onto what JESUS said. WOW. Thank YOU LORD that YOU have truly increased my faith!!! Crazy faith is what I prayed for and HE sure gave it to me! Praise GOD!!
Today we had a very different worship at We Will Go. Amy took most of the chairs out of the pavilion. We stood, we sat on the floor, we laid out on the ground, there was a lot of praise, and some dancing. It was amazing! LORD, please forgive me for putting YOU in a church box. YOU are so much bigger than that! I am so thankful that I am not asleep in the pew anymore! I am so thankful to be awake! There is so much more to JESUS than the hem of HIS garment! I met Millers son afterward, not quite sure what to make of it. He was very nice, well spoken, seemed intelligent. I need to pray for Miller more. I was Miller, WOW. Only by JESUS grace am I a new creation! Praise GOD!
Going to try for finishing up painting trim tomorrow. I must remember to pray hard that rain will not come in Tuesday, but Wednesday instead. That way I can finish! HELP LORD! Also, in 5 months we will be in AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
catching up
Ok, it has been a while. Things have been hectic! :) Thank YOU JESUS! Since I last posted, we have applied for Harvest School. YAAY!!! Just trusting JESUS to handle all the little details. satan has been really hitting me in the face a lot with trying to get me worried about the little details. I am not going to figure it out, JESUS said not to worry. HE said not to fear. So I will not do it. We will be accepted.
I have began to pray for Hunters mama, Misty. That JESUS will give her peace for what is coming. JESUS told Jay and I both that he is going to live with us. We have no idea how that is going to look. But we know that GOD wouldn't set us up to fail, and that if HE says something, it is so, and it is good! If you don't believe me read the first chapter of Genesis!! It repeats those words a lot! So I pray for JESUS to comfort her and Summer and Baylee (his sisters). He will come with her blessing. LORD, that seems impossible for me to comprehend, but I do believe in YOU JESUS!! So with that being said, when we counted out the money for the deposits for Harvest School ($200.00 a piece) we have enough for 5 deposits. After reading the book a mighty rushing wind by Mel Tari, I heard the LORD saying, "If you don't register Hunter, then you are coming into agreement that I can't do it." So after praying about it and much discussion, Jay and I registered Hunter. Because at the end of the day JESUS wins, and my FATHER can do what seems impossible to me! I believe in YOU LORD!!
We have added soup into our fast, and I am doing much better! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU aren't mad at me. I have learned that my crock pot can be my friend. Fix it and forget it! :) Organic soups can be really good too!! So we are having some nourishment and I am still getting to spend time with JESUS!
Yesterday (1/18/2012) Miss Kathy and I went to the Opportunity Center, (OC for short). We Will Go was asked to come once a week and lead a bible study. After praying for a while yesterday morning I asked the LORD to show me a scripture and explain it to me so a child could understand. Well, HE did! HE showed me Matthew 16:5-12. It is talking about the yeast in the bread and how the teaching of the Pharisees and Sadducees was deceptive. When I asked HIM to explain it, HE showed me the swimming pool at the YMCA where I used to work. HE reminded me that when there is a little poop in the water that ALL the water is contaminated. Even though there is 80,000 gallons of water in the pool, all of it is considered contaminated. Everyone must exit the pool, and chemicals must be added to the water and it shocked. Everyone should be kept out of the water for 24 hours. When we let a little sin into our lives, whether it be from hate, murder, drinking alcohol, using drugs, smoking cigarettes, or over eating, it is still sin and even if it is just a little it still contaminates our whole body. Our whole heart, our whole mind. Before I knew JESUS, I did know who HE was, but HE didn't live inside me. HE was beside me. HE is coming back for a spotless bride! Not a bride with just a little poop!! Can I be perfect? Of course not, but everyday I strive to have no poop inside my pool! If some creeps in I pray that I will be quick to repent, so as not to cause anyone else to get stumble on my mess! Who can help with this? Only JESUS! What a cool word HE gave me! Thank YOU JESUS! LORD, please clean my water every minute!
Also I am going through the reading list for Harvest School pretty fast. The LORD is so speaking to me through these books! Visions beyond the veil spoke to me too. JESUS told me to keep praying and seeking, but to wait. I will receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit! HE desires to give us good gifts! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU love us! That YOU gave everything for us! That YOU would have bankrupted Heaven for us is just a crazy thought, I am nothing but vapor, my life is so tiny to YOU, and it is all that I have that I can give YOU. But it is YOURS, please take it, use it for YOUR Glory! Love to all!
I have began to pray for Hunters mama, Misty. That JESUS will give her peace for what is coming. JESUS told Jay and I both that he is going to live with us. We have no idea how that is going to look. But we know that GOD wouldn't set us up to fail, and that if HE says something, it is so, and it is good! If you don't believe me read the first chapter of Genesis!! It repeats those words a lot! So I pray for JESUS to comfort her and Summer and Baylee (his sisters). He will come with her blessing. LORD, that seems impossible for me to comprehend, but I do believe in YOU JESUS!! So with that being said, when we counted out the money for the deposits for Harvest School ($200.00 a piece) we have enough for 5 deposits. After reading the book a mighty rushing wind by Mel Tari, I heard the LORD saying, "If you don't register Hunter, then you are coming into agreement that I can't do it." So after praying about it and much discussion, Jay and I registered Hunter. Because at the end of the day JESUS wins, and my FATHER can do what seems impossible to me! I believe in YOU LORD!!
We have added soup into our fast, and I am doing much better! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU aren't mad at me. I have learned that my crock pot can be my friend. Fix it and forget it! :) Organic soups can be really good too!! So we are having some nourishment and I am still getting to spend time with JESUS!
Yesterday (1/18/2012) Miss Kathy and I went to the Opportunity Center, (OC for short). We Will Go was asked to come once a week and lead a bible study. After praying for a while yesterday morning I asked the LORD to show me a scripture and explain it to me so a child could understand. Well, HE did! HE showed me Matthew 16:5-12. It is talking about the yeast in the bread and how the teaching of the Pharisees and Sadducees was deceptive. When I asked HIM to explain it, HE showed me the swimming pool at the YMCA where I used to work. HE reminded me that when there is a little poop in the water that ALL the water is contaminated. Even though there is 80,000 gallons of water in the pool, all of it is considered contaminated. Everyone must exit the pool, and chemicals must be added to the water and it shocked. Everyone should be kept out of the water for 24 hours. When we let a little sin into our lives, whether it be from hate, murder, drinking alcohol, using drugs, smoking cigarettes, or over eating, it is still sin and even if it is just a little it still contaminates our whole body. Our whole heart, our whole mind. Before I knew JESUS, I did know who HE was, but HE didn't live inside me. HE was beside me. HE is coming back for a spotless bride! Not a bride with just a little poop!! Can I be perfect? Of course not, but everyday I strive to have no poop inside my pool! If some creeps in I pray that I will be quick to repent, so as not to cause anyone else to get stumble on my mess! Who can help with this? Only JESUS! What a cool word HE gave me! Thank YOU JESUS! LORD, please clean my water every minute!
Also I am going through the reading list for Harvest School pretty fast. The LORD is so speaking to me through these books! Visions beyond the veil spoke to me too. JESUS told me to keep praying and seeking, but to wait. I will receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit! HE desires to give us good gifts! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU love us! That YOU gave everything for us! That YOU would have bankrupted Heaven for us is just a crazy thought, I am nothing but vapor, my life is so tiny to YOU, and it is all that I have that I can give YOU. But it is YOURS, please take it, use it for YOUR Glory! Love to all!
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