Since I last blogged so much has happened! The LORD told me to write a newsletter, which is good. But it is hard for me to not get into deep details! :) But I was obedient! It was good. I was thinking about support letters, but the newsletter works out so much better! Miss Amy suggested it, it is our story and it comes so much easier than, "Hey would you like to give money." The LORD has been dealing with me about pride. Don't you hate it when HE shows you something really ucky about yourself? I have been praying that HE helps me fix it. I honestly thought in the beginning that we would sell everything, come back here and both get jobs. That we would pay everything ourselves. I never imagined that we would have donations. I don't like to bother people. Did you know that you can bless someone by allowing them to sow into something that you are doing? WOW. I sure didn't know that till JESUS told me! HE is so smart!
We also have buyers for our house, so that is another reason I haven't blogged for a while. We are close to being done. Really close! I pray it happens soon! It will be nice to have our den back, for whatever time we do! The sweet friends that our buying our house are precious! I just can't be more thankful for them! We didn't even put a for sale sign up! That is ALL JESUS! I have been praying for them that JESUS would bless them with sweet babies!! They are both so beautiful, inside and out. And it will bless us so much to have believers buy this house!! What an honor that they will pray, and raise their babies here!! That this will be a house of life! How awesome! I have to be honest, it has been a little bitter sweet for me though. More so than I ever thought that it would be. I mean we have lived here for 8 years, and we have worked so hard to get it so right and now we are going to sell it to someone else. Counting the cost is something that we have done. It is high, but HE is worthy! What would you let keep you from running after JESUS? Well, we are supposed to sell it all. Also, today I listed the King Kong size bedroom set on Craigs list. Please pray with me that it sells quickly. We are supposed to be getting a quote on tickets within the next few days. Jay gets his bonus next Friday, it would be nice if we sold the bed and possibly had enough money for the plane tickets then! Praise GOD! HE can do it!!! This house is going to turn over quickly. I can't wait to see how HE works it out!. I also packed my first box today. :) I packed a box of year books and the pictures that we wanted to keep. We can't get these back, it is amazing how much stuff we have. And I am not for sure what we are supposed to do with any of it. I just keep hearing the word simplify, so we are going to take a step and get rid of it all! WOW, Please pray for me, as this part has been harder than I thought it would be. :) Pressing forward is important though.
Jay had a talk with Misty and Hunter on Friday. He insisted that Hunter be there. It was good. Hunter has been playing them against each other. He is supposed to be coming over this next weekend though. We are praying about this. We aren't supposed to say anything else about him supposed to be with us or Africa, or him lying about it. LORD, please help us to remember it isn't Hunter we are upset with. This isn't a physical battle. It is a Spiritual one. We are so blessed, thank YOU JESUS for allowing us to see how to pray. How many people don't get to see that. We can't save Hunter, but JESUS can. So we can pray to JESUS to save Hunter!
The LORD showed me a verse yesterday in Ecc. 3, there is a time to keep and a time to throw away. It is time to throw away, clean out, get rid of. Just like the stuff inside me, it is time for a purging. Just like we flush the old stuff in the toilet, we must flush the old stuff out of us! Praise GOD we don't have to keep that stuff in there and become Spiritually constipated! (David Wagner said that). It was funny! :) Till next time.......
Monday, March 5, 2012
Friday, February 10, 2012
can I just say wow.....
It has been a while since I have written. It doesn't mean that things have been quiet. It has just been hard to find the balance. JESUS is worth is all though! On last Sunday we showed the house. Did I mention that we haven't put a for sale sign in the yard? JESUS can do anything with nothing. I am painting the last bedroom and Mr. David is coming over here on Monday to work on the trim. Jay is on call and can't take off but I can help him. Praise GOD, I am going to learn about putting up trim! Haha!
I put a cabinet on Craigs list and within a few hours I had someone email about buying it. She came and looked at it yesterday and I am going to take it to her today. Emily is going to ride with me. :) What a sweet new friend JESUS has given me.
Last night (Thursday) we went downtown and instead of bible study we had a special speaker, David Wagner. WOW. We had worship on Thursday. Did you know that you can worship the LORD any day of the week? I wrote down some notes. Rev 12:11. And they have defeated him (satan) by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die. WOW. When you tell your story, GOD reveals HIS GLORY! When I tell on myself then the devil has nothing to use against me. Matthew 13:44. The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field. Did you know that you are the treasure in the field? GOD is the man, and HE would bankrupt Heaven just for you! He said that everyone in the room would raise the dead before they were dead. When you dilute the Word of GOD you pollute it. Don't compromise, don't HELP GOD. (that one was for me for sure) Enter the Glory zone! Church had really become entertainment for me. That was a shock. I can plead the blood over things! The same Holy Spirit that raised JESUS from the dead lives inside me! WOW. Don't devalue the name of JESUS! HE is alive!!!! Declare HIS great name! No lies, no compromise! Wake up church! A diamond is a piece of coal that stayed on the job! Revelation 21:4 HE will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying of pain. All these things are gone forever. That doesn't say that they will be gone forever, it says that they are gone forever! Praise GOD! Thank YOU JESUS! All things will become new, even you! It is done! Everyone in the room will have an Ezekiel 37 anointing. WOW, a valley of dry bones! Who would want to go to a valley of dry bones on purpose? The LORD takes you to places that you don't want to go. Listen for the rattling and shaking of the bones! Don't you hear it? The constipated church needs Holy Spirit exlax! We have become a nation who loves to receive. But we must give! We have had a drive through mindset. We have a whole city of people who have death by disappointment on their graves. People here have been buried alive, but we can dig them out! BUT GOD! Where most people put a period, GOD puts a comma. What you thought was over, GOD is putting a comma there. GOD doesn't call the qualified, HE qualifies the called. Accept the call, Accept the Mantle. And remember when we are rejected by family and friends it is because GOD has called us! GOD heals our hope! It can happen here! Speak life over Jackson, Mississippi in the mighty name of JESUS! Don't stop believing because you can't see it! Many are called but few are chosen, means many are called, but few choose to step into what HE has chosen them to be! Be who HE has called you to be! Stop waiting for someone else, you are the somebody else! What has buried you alive? Fear can have no place in me! How can I change the world? By loving one person at a time! We should all believe in what HE says! There is an urgency in the earth! GOD has activated an anointing to go deeper. (JESUS has been speaking this word to me a lot lately). Tell the people to get ready for GOD'S breath! Forgiveness is key! The events of my past, being molested, used, hurt, lied to, shooed away, those events ushered me into the presence of the LORD! Remember you were never bad, you were just broken. Genesis 37. The story of Joseph, GOD is going to do something brand new in you! (In me!) John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. Right now step into the abundant life! Don't compromise the message, just the method. This is what I jotted down as David Wagner was talking. Then we started praying and he prayed somethings over people and I got some of it down, but I was completely undone. Barbie, your have to's will become want to's. Healing in her body. Teacher. Star, she has the keys, and is a jail breaker, a liberator, and a faithful friend. Jeff, full of prophetic gift, not a prophet. Unwrap HIS Word, visionary. Sons of Issachar. He is a father of the faith. Celebration of life. Hebrews 10. Cloud of witnesses, and permission has been granted. Youth ministry. You are sold out! Youthfulness into 80's, running with children. What you are building is for your children and grandchildren. Mama, TOTAL healing for Joe, bike ministry, Grace will be granted. Me, wow, I wasn't even expecting him to pray over me. He said that I was being given a boldness, and the words I'm sorry were going to be wiped from my vocabulary. Quit apologizing for everything. The LORD has given me a roaring lion anointing!? The season of waiting is over!!!!! WOW!!! GOD has heard my prayers and my whole family will be saved! By name, sister, brothers, aunts and uncles! The LORD has taught me to be a daughter, a wife, and a mother, now HE is going to make me a mother to nations!? All in the room will now have an Isiah 58 anointing! Strength and courage! We Will Go will see a total turn around and a fortress for families, satan is scared and running! Unification by fortification. This year many fathers will come to the LORD! Families will be transformed and whole households will come running to JESUS. We Will Go will have access to the excess. Bulidings and a food ministry feeding two hot meals a day. WOW GOD! There's that comma! :)
I put a cabinet on Craigs list and within a few hours I had someone email about buying it. She came and looked at it yesterday and I am going to take it to her today. Emily is going to ride with me. :) What a sweet new friend JESUS has given me.
Last night (Thursday) we went downtown and instead of bible study we had a special speaker, David Wagner. WOW. We had worship on Thursday. Did you know that you can worship the LORD any day of the week? I wrote down some notes. Rev 12:11. And they have defeated him (satan) by the blood of the Lamb and by their testimony. And they did not love their lives so much that they were afraid to die. WOW. When you tell your story, GOD reveals HIS GLORY! When I tell on myself then the devil has nothing to use against me. Matthew 13:44. The Kingdom of Heaven is like a treasure that a man discovered hidden in a field. In his excitement, he hid it again and sold everything he owned to get enough money to buy the field. Did you know that you are the treasure in the field? GOD is the man, and HE would bankrupt Heaven just for you! He said that everyone in the room would raise the dead before they were dead. When you dilute the Word of GOD you pollute it. Don't compromise, don't HELP GOD. (that one was for me for sure) Enter the Glory zone! Church had really become entertainment for me. That was a shock. I can plead the blood over things! The same Holy Spirit that raised JESUS from the dead lives inside me! WOW. Don't devalue the name of JESUS! HE is alive!!!! Declare HIS great name! No lies, no compromise! Wake up church! A diamond is a piece of coal that stayed on the job! Revelation 21:4 HE will wipe every tear from their eyes, and there will be no more death or sorrow or crying of pain. All these things are gone forever. That doesn't say that they will be gone forever, it says that they are gone forever! Praise GOD! Thank YOU JESUS! All things will become new, even you! It is done! Everyone in the room will have an Ezekiel 37 anointing. WOW, a valley of dry bones! Who would want to go to a valley of dry bones on purpose? The LORD takes you to places that you don't want to go. Listen for the rattling and shaking of the bones! Don't you hear it? The constipated church needs Holy Spirit exlax! We have become a nation who loves to receive. But we must give! We have had a drive through mindset. We have a whole city of people who have death by disappointment on their graves. People here have been buried alive, but we can dig them out! BUT GOD! Where most people put a period, GOD puts a comma. What you thought was over, GOD is putting a comma there. GOD doesn't call the qualified, HE qualifies the called. Accept the call, Accept the Mantle. And remember when we are rejected by family and friends it is because GOD has called us! GOD heals our hope! It can happen here! Speak life over Jackson, Mississippi in the mighty name of JESUS! Don't stop believing because you can't see it! Many are called but few are chosen, means many are called, but few choose to step into what HE has chosen them to be! Be who HE has called you to be! Stop waiting for someone else, you are the somebody else! What has buried you alive? Fear can have no place in me! How can I change the world? By loving one person at a time! We should all believe in what HE says! There is an urgency in the earth! GOD has activated an anointing to go deeper. (JESUS has been speaking this word to me a lot lately). Tell the people to get ready for GOD'S breath! Forgiveness is key! The events of my past, being molested, used, hurt, lied to, shooed away, those events ushered me into the presence of the LORD! Remember you were never bad, you were just broken. Genesis 37. The story of Joseph, GOD is going to do something brand new in you! (In me!) John 10:10 The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more abundantly. Right now step into the abundant life! Don't compromise the message, just the method. This is what I jotted down as David Wagner was talking. Then we started praying and he prayed somethings over people and I got some of it down, but I was completely undone. Barbie, your have to's will become want to's. Healing in her body. Teacher. Star, she has the keys, and is a jail breaker, a liberator, and a faithful friend. Jeff, full of prophetic gift, not a prophet. Unwrap HIS Word, visionary. Sons of Issachar. He is a father of the faith. Celebration of life. Hebrews 10. Cloud of witnesses, and permission has been granted. Youth ministry. You are sold out! Youthfulness into 80's, running with children. What you are building is for your children and grandchildren. Mama, TOTAL healing for Joe, bike ministry, Grace will be granted. Me, wow, I wasn't even expecting him to pray over me. He said that I was being given a boldness, and the words I'm sorry were going to be wiped from my vocabulary. Quit apologizing for everything. The LORD has given me a roaring lion anointing!? The season of waiting is over!!!!! WOW!!! GOD has heard my prayers and my whole family will be saved! By name, sister, brothers, aunts and uncles! The LORD has taught me to be a daughter, a wife, and a mother, now HE is going to make me a mother to nations!? All in the room will now have an Isiah 58 anointing! Strength and courage! We Will Go will see a total turn around and a fortress for families, satan is scared and running! Unification by fortification. This year many fathers will come to the LORD! Families will be transformed and whole households will come running to JESUS. We Will Go will have access to the excess. Bulidings and a food ministry feeding two hot meals a day. WOW GOD! There's that comma! :)
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Well.........
It just dawned on me that I am not numbering days anymore. We are still fasting. I did straight water for 6 days, Jay went 9 days. Then we had smoothies and now he is doing 1 meal of soft soup a day, and I am doing dry fiber cereal for breakfast, salad for lunch and soft soup with him for dinner. I plan on fasting for a while like this. Maybe till we go to Africa. Not being legalistic about it, but still pushing forward. The really cool thing is that GOD speaks! And we are getting prepared for our next journey!
We got our acceptance letter on Friday from Harvest school!!! We were so excited!! We were on our way downtown to meet, encourage, and feed some missionaries! How amazing, neither one of us can stop smiling!! We knew that we were going, cause GOD said so, but now man says so too! WOW, thank you JESUS!! Gillian is here also, and she is amazing! She will be the one to pick us up from the airport in Mozambique! WOW! GOD always knows!! :)
We had a talk with Misty, it was very awkward. Hunter wasn't there, which I felt like was on purpose. But only JESUS will know, cause I don't feel that she would ever admit it. She didn't say a whole lot, she just laid on the couch while Jay talked. I didn't talk much, but there were a couple of things that she said that were so wrong, it just went through me. Like that Hunter wasn't right enough with GOD to do something like that. We won't be right enough with GOD until we get to Heaven! We are all sinners! Did you know that there is nothing that you can ever, ever, ever, ever do that would earn your way into Heaven? You can go to church every day of the week and it wouldn't make you clean enough. When people encountered JESUS in the bible, they were radically changed. The demon possessed man, the woman with the issue of blood, the little girl who was dead. All were totally transformed by JESUS! So we talked to her on Saturday night and then on Monday we got a long text message from her saying this, God is not a God of deceit and confusion. I felt nothing but deceived and confused the other night. First of all that you even mentioned it to Hunter without asking me first. Second to be so bold as to say God would tell you and not me....or I don't know....even Hunter! I talked to him about it. Not saying anything about y'all at first. I simply asked him if he felt God is calling him to Africa. Without a moments hesitation he said truthfully momma...no. Not right now but Daddy and Ms Laura keep asking me to go every time I go over there. I don't appreciate y'all putting Hunter in a tough spot of having to feel obligated to do something you feel led about. Like God is not going to tell Hunter. Bottom line....he's not going and we aren't getting a passport either. I feel deceived and I'm sure not taking a chance by getting his passport. It's my job to make these decisions for him. I'm his mom. Don't put him in an awkward position by bringing this back up to him. Think about it....why don't he come over there? JESUS, I truly pray your peace for her. I can't imagine as a mother how this must have made her feel. If I didn't know JESUS like I do now, it wouldn't happen for my daughters to be going with Jay and I to a foreign country! But JESUS said our family would be restored and unified. Satan will have to give the things back that the locusts ate! She hit a cheap shot with the reason that he doesn't want to come over here. For months she has been saying that it had nothing to do with us, so now she has been caught in a lie. Also, Hunter hasn't been over here very much since May. And I only briefly saw him for about 20 minutes when we went to pick him up from school so that he could go hunting with Jerry, I mean Jay hasn't seen Hunter since Christmas! And Hunter was only over here for 1 day! We never said that GOD didn't talk to her. And Jay told her, we have prayed and fasted about it, both of us! It wasn't our plan for Hunter to go either! But GOD brought so much peace about him going that we registered him. And we did pay his deposit. Which was a crazy step of faith for us!! And we also will go forward and pay his tuition in full, and we won't stop, but our plan is to be right in GOD'S will. Hunter sent text messages on Sunday night saying he couldn't wait to see us this next weekend?? He said that he had picked up his bible and started reading Romans, and that JESUS had showed him what was wrong in his life. I am so confused, someone is lying. I don't know who it is, nor do I care. :) They are lying to themselves, this is for GOD'S Glory and Honor, not mine for sure! We never thought that we would be sitting right here right now. We are almost done with the house, and we are going to sell it and get on that plane and we really don't know what our lives will look like after that! But I know that at the end of the day it is absolutely worth every hard time, every sad day, every brick wall. He is worth it all! David was over here yesterday helping Jay with the trim, and he really encouraged Jay and I both. GOD wants to do something incredible in Hunter's life! In all of our lives! But we have the choice to say no. I find it interesting that HE gave us a will that strong! WOW, I don't want to wrestle with HIM anymore. I just want to do what HE wants me to do. And with everything that I have inside me, I believe that is to believe HIM that Hunter will be with us on that plane to Africa, and it will be with her blessing! GOD gave that to Jay and I both. So last night we paid our deposits, and we just believe GOD! All day something tugged at me, when we were running full force after the devil, no one, not even our so called church friends cared. But when we start running with everything that we have after JESUS all of a sudden that isn't good enough. I really don't understand, most of our old church friends, even Misty don't understand our lives now. But GOD showed me yesterday in HIS word this scripture. Exodus 14:4 (This is the LORD talking) And once again I will harden Pharaoh's heart, and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display MY Glory through Pharaoh and his whole army. After this the Egyptians will know that I am the LORD! So the Israelites camped there as they were told. Well, maybe GOD is doing this to display HIS Glory to her? Maybe HE is trying to teach us something? I don't know, but I do know that I love HIM! And I will do what I was told. To pay his deposit, and to believe! What an honor to stand on this side of the Red Sea! Think about it, if they had never stepped out into the sea, it would have no reason to part! LORD, I will walk through the sea, I will wait for you to part the waters and not try to that figure out myself!
We got our acceptance letter on Friday from Harvest school!!! We were so excited!! We were on our way downtown to meet, encourage, and feed some missionaries! How amazing, neither one of us can stop smiling!! We knew that we were going, cause GOD said so, but now man says so too! WOW, thank you JESUS!! Gillian is here also, and she is amazing! She will be the one to pick us up from the airport in Mozambique! WOW! GOD always knows!! :)
We had a talk with Misty, it was very awkward. Hunter wasn't there, which I felt like was on purpose. But only JESUS will know, cause I don't feel that she would ever admit it. She didn't say a whole lot, she just laid on the couch while Jay talked. I didn't talk much, but there were a couple of things that she said that were so wrong, it just went through me. Like that Hunter wasn't right enough with GOD to do something like that. We won't be right enough with GOD until we get to Heaven! We are all sinners! Did you know that there is nothing that you can ever, ever, ever, ever do that would earn your way into Heaven? You can go to church every day of the week and it wouldn't make you clean enough. When people encountered JESUS in the bible, they were radically changed. The demon possessed man, the woman with the issue of blood, the little girl who was dead. All were totally transformed by JESUS! So we talked to her on Saturday night and then on Monday we got a long text message from her saying this, God is not a God of deceit and confusion. I felt nothing but deceived and confused the other night. First of all that you even mentioned it to Hunter without asking me first. Second to be so bold as to say God would tell you and not me....or I don't know....even Hunter! I talked to him about it. Not saying anything about y'all at first. I simply asked him if he felt God is calling him to Africa. Without a moments hesitation he said truthfully momma...no. Not right now but Daddy and Ms Laura keep asking me to go every time I go over there. I don't appreciate y'all putting Hunter in a tough spot of having to feel obligated to do something you feel led about. Like God is not going to tell Hunter. Bottom line....he's not going and we aren't getting a passport either. I feel deceived and I'm sure not taking a chance by getting his passport. It's my job to make these decisions for him. I'm his mom. Don't put him in an awkward position by bringing this back up to him. Think about it....why don't he come over there? JESUS, I truly pray your peace for her. I can't imagine as a mother how this must have made her feel. If I didn't know JESUS like I do now, it wouldn't happen for my daughters to be going with Jay and I to a foreign country! But JESUS said our family would be restored and unified. Satan will have to give the things back that the locusts ate! She hit a cheap shot with the reason that he doesn't want to come over here. For months she has been saying that it had nothing to do with us, so now she has been caught in a lie. Also, Hunter hasn't been over here very much since May. And I only briefly saw him for about 20 minutes when we went to pick him up from school so that he could go hunting with Jerry, I mean Jay hasn't seen Hunter since Christmas! And Hunter was only over here for 1 day! We never said that GOD didn't talk to her. And Jay told her, we have prayed and fasted about it, both of us! It wasn't our plan for Hunter to go either! But GOD brought so much peace about him going that we registered him. And we did pay his deposit. Which was a crazy step of faith for us!! And we also will go forward and pay his tuition in full, and we won't stop, but our plan is to be right in GOD'S will. Hunter sent text messages on Sunday night saying he couldn't wait to see us this next weekend?? He said that he had picked up his bible and started reading Romans, and that JESUS had showed him what was wrong in his life. I am so confused, someone is lying. I don't know who it is, nor do I care. :) They are lying to themselves, this is for GOD'S Glory and Honor, not mine for sure! We never thought that we would be sitting right here right now. We are almost done with the house, and we are going to sell it and get on that plane and we really don't know what our lives will look like after that! But I know that at the end of the day it is absolutely worth every hard time, every sad day, every brick wall. He is worth it all! David was over here yesterday helping Jay with the trim, and he really encouraged Jay and I both. GOD wants to do something incredible in Hunter's life! In all of our lives! But we have the choice to say no. I find it interesting that HE gave us a will that strong! WOW, I don't want to wrestle with HIM anymore. I just want to do what HE wants me to do. And with everything that I have inside me, I believe that is to believe HIM that Hunter will be with us on that plane to Africa, and it will be with her blessing! GOD gave that to Jay and I both. So last night we paid our deposits, and we just believe GOD! All day something tugged at me, when we were running full force after the devil, no one, not even our so called church friends cared. But when we start running with everything that we have after JESUS all of a sudden that isn't good enough. I really don't understand, most of our old church friends, even Misty don't understand our lives now. But GOD showed me yesterday in HIS word this scripture. Exodus 14:4 (This is the LORD talking) And once again I will harden Pharaoh's heart, and he will chase after you. I have planned this in order to display MY Glory through Pharaoh and his whole army. After this the Egyptians will know that I am the LORD! So the Israelites camped there as they were told. Well, maybe GOD is doing this to display HIS Glory to her? Maybe HE is trying to teach us something? I don't know, but I do know that I love HIM! And I will do what I was told. To pay his deposit, and to believe! What an honor to stand on this side of the Red Sea! Think about it, if they had never stepped out into the sea, it would have no reason to part! LORD, I will walk through the sea, I will wait for you to part the waters and not try to that figure out myself!
Thursday, January 26, 2012
blessings?? Or not??
Today as I was taking a shower and getting dressed I was looking around. GOD really hit me with something, are the things that I have always looked at and called them my blessings really blessings?? Or are they burdens brought on by satan?? Hmm......I decided to break down a few and see how they rack up producing fruits of the Spirit. According to Galatians 5:22-23 says "But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness and self control." Looking at each, and what kind of fruit I produce through each proposed "Blessing." My husband and children, definitely from GOD, they bless me daily with so much, love, laughter, joy, peace, goodness. Sometimes I pray a lot about the patience, gentleness and self control, just kidding!! Hahaha, I did mention that I home school Gabby and Maggy right?? Jay's job? Hmmmm, I have always thought that it was a blessing from GOD that he had the job. But when I look at it from a Kingdom perspective, it keeps him away from us so much. Last night, he came in from work late, dinner was ready and before we even sat down he got paged out and as soon as he finished he had to leave. So he left about 6:30 and got home about 10:30. He asked for next week off but his boss turned it down, not to be ugly to Jay, but they just have so much going on. So, I ask again, blessing or burden?? Hmmm..... House?? Well, we have a house payment, so we are a slave to the mortgage company. Blessing or burden?? Van?? Which thank the Good LORD HIMSELF we only have one! We have a van payment of 356.00 a month. Slave to the lender, Blessing or burden?? That HUGE king size bedroom suite that we bought almost 4 years ago and paid (cough, cough) $5000.00 for, we made payments for 2 years! Blessing or burden?? The LORD is giving me some new eyes to see with. And everything is looking a lot different today. The things in this house do not give me joy the way that they used to. I long to be free from it. I long to be free to run after JESUS! I pray that HE takes these burdens from us before we leave for Africa. We are still praying about what to do when we come back. We do believe that we will come back for a season possibly. Because Hunter will be with us. Where will we live? I don't know that we can live anywhere cheaper than we live here. I am not sure what we are going to do. Still praying about this. But in HIS time HE will let us know. I am very excited that we are going to get the honor to go to Africa! To go to school and learn from all these people who have lived it, to learn from the very least of these. What an honor!
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
One task complete
Well, it has been a pretty busy week so far. GOD has reminded me over and over how faithful HE is. On Monday I was painting and I had to go and get some more paint cause I thought that I was going to run out. Did you know that a little paint goes a LONG way? Well, I kept thinking that I didn't have enough, so I had to go to Lowes. I got my gallon of paint and went to the counter to get it mixed up. There was a young guy that came up and went down the aisle after a man asking if he could help him. I was pretty aggravated because I was standing at the counter first. I thought, well that wasn't right or fair. But I pushed all of that back down, did you know that sometimes we just have to choose to be nice? Like I said, I am still learning. After he came and got what I needed, he went and waited on two other people, while my can just sat there! I thought, well at the end of the day, this isn't going to matter, and JESUS came for everyone in this store. So I chose to be nice again. :) Finally, after what should have been a 10 minute Lowes trip had turned into a 30 minute me standing there with no paint yet. Another guy walks up and starts talking about buying a house, then turns to me and smiles. He is looking for a house to buy. I say, "What area are you looking to buy?" He says, "Oh Pearl." I said, "Oh, well I have a house in Flowood that is about to be put up for sale." Then the other guy, the one who kept looking over me says, "Tell me about your house, cause I am looking for one." So I start telling him about our house, then he asks how much. I just blurted out 175,000. And he says, "Oh wow, I just got pre approved for 180,000. When can I come and look at your house?" He said he may come and look at it today! WOW. JESUS, keep our eyes focused on YOU. YOU will be the one to sell this house, not us! In the meantime, JESUS sent two absolutely beautiful days of almost 70 degree weather in January!! So all the painting of the trim is done. YAAY! Now hopefully next week Jay will take off work and Mr. David can come and get Jay started and we can get this last step done. Last step complete! YAAY!
We are still trying to get to talk Misty. It will be on Saturday before we can talk to her. We have been praying so hard for her. JESUS told me something very clear yesterday. What do I expect? How do I expect this to work? Do I expect change or the same old thing? Well, HE did change me, and HE can change anyone else too. I love her, and my deepest desire is for Hunter to run after JESUS with everything that he has!! I have been thinking about how GOD can use Hunter after Harvest School. 1. Hunter can be completely transformed! 2. Hunter can pour what he has learned into his mama and sisters. 3. Hunter can pour what he learns into Pearl high school! 4. Hunter can pour what he learns into his church. 5. Hunter can pour what he learns into his neighborhood. WOW. Thank YOU JESUS that YOU alone change people!! Nothing is beyond YOUR great hand!!
We are still trying to get to talk Misty. It will be on Saturday before we can talk to her. We have been praying so hard for her. JESUS told me something very clear yesterday. What do I expect? How do I expect this to work? Do I expect change or the same old thing? Well, HE did change me, and HE can change anyone else too. I love her, and my deepest desire is for Hunter to run after JESUS with everything that he has!! I have been thinking about how GOD can use Hunter after Harvest School. 1. Hunter can be completely transformed! 2. Hunter can pour what he has learned into his mama and sisters. 3. Hunter can pour what he learns into Pearl high school! 4. Hunter can pour what he learns into his church. 5. Hunter can pour what he learns into his neighborhood. WOW. Thank YOU JESUS that YOU alone change people!! Nothing is beyond YOUR great hand!!
Sunday, January 22, 2012
GOD speaks!
Well, we finished the first part of our fast yesterday with our We Will Go family. I have to say that it has truly been the hardest fast I have ever done! Last year we went 40 days and it wasn't this hard! It has been opposition since day 1!
Jay has been working a tremendous amount of overtime this past week. It leaves a lot of responsibility on me. JESUS told Jay that HE has got to find a balance, he hasn't been spending time with the kids, or me, because when he gets home from work he is used up and tired. I am really praying for him to find that balance! I know that him leaving his job and us living on faith is going to be so extreme from what we have done in the past, but it will be so good for our family because he can sow into the kids what I can't. I am not meant to be the leader, but the help meet. I led most of our marriage, but that is why we had such opposition. It is Jay's job. I must keep supporting him without taking over. Still really praying through this! But it is getting easier thank YOU JESUS!!
Yesterday we had the sweetest worship! I was really worried about how we were gonna worship for 6 hours, but I was really sad to leave! I could have stayed 6 more hours!! WOW! We came home and Jay and Maggy went to the all night skate, I had weird dreams all night. I don't remember many of them, but I know that we are going to encourage a family to go to Harvest School. I don't know the time line, but we will. Well, Praise GOD! Also JESUS showed Jay and I both that Moses didn't just grab up some Israelites and go to the wilderness. He told them what he was going to do first. Then he told Pharaoh what he was going to do also. HE is a GOD of order, and warning. So tomorrow we are going to go and tell Misty what is going to happen and that Hunter is going with us to Mozambique. I have really been praying for a couple of weeks now for her that JESUS would prepare her heart. I don't have to wonder if it is GOD'S will for Hunter to be with his Daddy, because I know that it is. And GOD said that he was going to live with us. I don't know when, but I believe that GOD is bigger than a mothers love for her son. And I know that Misty loves Hunter a lot. But GOD loves Hunter more than she does, HE made Hunter! I can't imagine how it is going to work out, but I am just hanging onto what JESUS said. WOW. Thank YOU LORD that YOU have truly increased my faith!!! Crazy faith is what I prayed for and HE sure gave it to me! Praise GOD!!
Today we had a very different worship at We Will Go. Amy took most of the chairs out of the pavilion. We stood, we sat on the floor, we laid out on the ground, there was a lot of praise, and some dancing. It was amazing! LORD, please forgive me for putting YOU in a church box. YOU are so much bigger than that! I am so thankful that I am not asleep in the pew anymore! I am so thankful to be awake! There is so much more to JESUS than the hem of HIS garment! I met Millers son afterward, not quite sure what to make of it. He was very nice, well spoken, seemed intelligent. I need to pray for Miller more. I was Miller, WOW. Only by JESUS grace am I a new creation! Praise GOD!
Going to try for finishing up painting trim tomorrow. I must remember to pray hard that rain will not come in Tuesday, but Wednesday instead. That way I can finish! HELP LORD! Also, in 5 months we will be in AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!
Jay has been working a tremendous amount of overtime this past week. It leaves a lot of responsibility on me. JESUS told Jay that HE has got to find a balance, he hasn't been spending time with the kids, or me, because when he gets home from work he is used up and tired. I am really praying for him to find that balance! I know that him leaving his job and us living on faith is going to be so extreme from what we have done in the past, but it will be so good for our family because he can sow into the kids what I can't. I am not meant to be the leader, but the help meet. I led most of our marriage, but that is why we had such opposition. It is Jay's job. I must keep supporting him without taking over. Still really praying through this! But it is getting easier thank YOU JESUS!!
Yesterday we had the sweetest worship! I was really worried about how we were gonna worship for 6 hours, but I was really sad to leave! I could have stayed 6 more hours!! WOW! We came home and Jay and Maggy went to the all night skate, I had weird dreams all night. I don't remember many of them, but I know that we are going to encourage a family to go to Harvest School. I don't know the time line, but we will. Well, Praise GOD! Also JESUS showed Jay and I both that Moses didn't just grab up some Israelites and go to the wilderness. He told them what he was going to do first. Then he told Pharaoh what he was going to do also. HE is a GOD of order, and warning. So tomorrow we are going to go and tell Misty what is going to happen and that Hunter is going with us to Mozambique. I have really been praying for a couple of weeks now for her that JESUS would prepare her heart. I don't have to wonder if it is GOD'S will for Hunter to be with his Daddy, because I know that it is. And GOD said that he was going to live with us. I don't know when, but I believe that GOD is bigger than a mothers love for her son. And I know that Misty loves Hunter a lot. But GOD loves Hunter more than she does, HE made Hunter! I can't imagine how it is going to work out, but I am just hanging onto what JESUS said. WOW. Thank YOU LORD that YOU have truly increased my faith!!! Crazy faith is what I prayed for and HE sure gave it to me! Praise GOD!!
Today we had a very different worship at We Will Go. Amy took most of the chairs out of the pavilion. We stood, we sat on the floor, we laid out on the ground, there was a lot of praise, and some dancing. It was amazing! LORD, please forgive me for putting YOU in a church box. YOU are so much bigger than that! I am so thankful that I am not asleep in the pew anymore! I am so thankful to be awake! There is so much more to JESUS than the hem of HIS garment! I met Millers son afterward, not quite sure what to make of it. He was very nice, well spoken, seemed intelligent. I need to pray for Miller more. I was Miller, WOW. Only by JESUS grace am I a new creation! Praise GOD!
Going to try for finishing up painting trim tomorrow. I must remember to pray hard that rain will not come in Tuesday, but Wednesday instead. That way I can finish! HELP LORD! Also, in 5 months we will be in AFRICA!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, January 19, 2012
catching up
Ok, it has been a while. Things have been hectic! :) Thank YOU JESUS! Since I last posted, we have applied for Harvest School. YAAY!!! Just trusting JESUS to handle all the little details. satan has been really hitting me in the face a lot with trying to get me worried about the little details. I am not going to figure it out, JESUS said not to worry. HE said not to fear. So I will not do it. We will be accepted.
I have began to pray for Hunters mama, Misty. That JESUS will give her peace for what is coming. JESUS told Jay and I both that he is going to live with us. We have no idea how that is going to look. But we know that GOD wouldn't set us up to fail, and that if HE says something, it is so, and it is good! If you don't believe me read the first chapter of Genesis!! It repeats those words a lot! So I pray for JESUS to comfort her and Summer and Baylee (his sisters). He will come with her blessing. LORD, that seems impossible for me to comprehend, but I do believe in YOU JESUS!! So with that being said, when we counted out the money for the deposits for Harvest School ($200.00 a piece) we have enough for 5 deposits. After reading the book a mighty rushing wind by Mel Tari, I heard the LORD saying, "If you don't register Hunter, then you are coming into agreement that I can't do it." So after praying about it and much discussion, Jay and I registered Hunter. Because at the end of the day JESUS wins, and my FATHER can do what seems impossible to me! I believe in YOU LORD!!
We have added soup into our fast, and I am doing much better! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU aren't mad at me. I have learned that my crock pot can be my friend. Fix it and forget it! :) Organic soups can be really good too!! So we are having some nourishment and I am still getting to spend time with JESUS!
Yesterday (1/18/2012) Miss Kathy and I went to the Opportunity Center, (OC for short). We Will Go was asked to come once a week and lead a bible study. After praying for a while yesterday morning I asked the LORD to show me a scripture and explain it to me so a child could understand. Well, HE did! HE showed me Matthew 16:5-12. It is talking about the yeast in the bread and how the teaching of the Pharisees and Sadducees was deceptive. When I asked HIM to explain it, HE showed me the swimming pool at the YMCA where I used to work. HE reminded me that when there is a little poop in the water that ALL the water is contaminated. Even though there is 80,000 gallons of water in the pool, all of it is considered contaminated. Everyone must exit the pool, and chemicals must be added to the water and it shocked. Everyone should be kept out of the water for 24 hours. When we let a little sin into our lives, whether it be from hate, murder, drinking alcohol, using drugs, smoking cigarettes, or over eating, it is still sin and even if it is just a little it still contaminates our whole body. Our whole heart, our whole mind. Before I knew JESUS, I did know who HE was, but HE didn't live inside me. HE was beside me. HE is coming back for a spotless bride! Not a bride with just a little poop!! Can I be perfect? Of course not, but everyday I strive to have no poop inside my pool! If some creeps in I pray that I will be quick to repent, so as not to cause anyone else to get stumble on my mess! Who can help with this? Only JESUS! What a cool word HE gave me! Thank YOU JESUS! LORD, please clean my water every minute!
Also I am going through the reading list for Harvest School pretty fast. The LORD is so speaking to me through these books! Visions beyond the veil spoke to me too. JESUS told me to keep praying and seeking, but to wait. I will receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit! HE desires to give us good gifts! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU love us! That YOU gave everything for us! That YOU would have bankrupted Heaven for us is just a crazy thought, I am nothing but vapor, my life is so tiny to YOU, and it is all that I have that I can give YOU. But it is YOURS, please take it, use it for YOUR Glory! Love to all!
I have began to pray for Hunters mama, Misty. That JESUS will give her peace for what is coming. JESUS told Jay and I both that he is going to live with us. We have no idea how that is going to look. But we know that GOD wouldn't set us up to fail, and that if HE says something, it is so, and it is good! If you don't believe me read the first chapter of Genesis!! It repeats those words a lot! So I pray for JESUS to comfort her and Summer and Baylee (his sisters). He will come with her blessing. LORD, that seems impossible for me to comprehend, but I do believe in YOU JESUS!! So with that being said, when we counted out the money for the deposits for Harvest School ($200.00 a piece) we have enough for 5 deposits. After reading the book a mighty rushing wind by Mel Tari, I heard the LORD saying, "If you don't register Hunter, then you are coming into agreement that I can't do it." So after praying about it and much discussion, Jay and I registered Hunter. Because at the end of the day JESUS wins, and my FATHER can do what seems impossible to me! I believe in YOU LORD!!
We have added soup into our fast, and I am doing much better! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU aren't mad at me. I have learned that my crock pot can be my friend. Fix it and forget it! :) Organic soups can be really good too!! So we are having some nourishment and I am still getting to spend time with JESUS!
Yesterday (1/18/2012) Miss Kathy and I went to the Opportunity Center, (OC for short). We Will Go was asked to come once a week and lead a bible study. After praying for a while yesterday morning I asked the LORD to show me a scripture and explain it to me so a child could understand. Well, HE did! HE showed me Matthew 16:5-12. It is talking about the yeast in the bread and how the teaching of the Pharisees and Sadducees was deceptive. When I asked HIM to explain it, HE showed me the swimming pool at the YMCA where I used to work. HE reminded me that when there is a little poop in the water that ALL the water is contaminated. Even though there is 80,000 gallons of water in the pool, all of it is considered contaminated. Everyone must exit the pool, and chemicals must be added to the water and it shocked. Everyone should be kept out of the water for 24 hours. When we let a little sin into our lives, whether it be from hate, murder, drinking alcohol, using drugs, smoking cigarettes, or over eating, it is still sin and even if it is just a little it still contaminates our whole body. Our whole heart, our whole mind. Before I knew JESUS, I did know who HE was, but HE didn't live inside me. HE was beside me. HE is coming back for a spotless bride! Not a bride with just a little poop!! Can I be perfect? Of course not, but everyday I strive to have no poop inside my pool! If some creeps in I pray that I will be quick to repent, so as not to cause anyone else to get stumble on my mess! Who can help with this? Only JESUS! What a cool word HE gave me! Thank YOU JESUS! LORD, please clean my water every minute!
Also I am going through the reading list for Harvest School pretty fast. The LORD is so speaking to me through these books! Visions beyond the veil spoke to me too. JESUS told me to keep praying and seeking, but to wait. I will receive the baptism of the Holy Spirit! HE desires to give us good gifts! Thank YOU JESUS that YOU love us! That YOU gave everything for us! That YOU would have bankrupted Heaven for us is just a crazy thought, I am nothing but vapor, my life is so tiny to YOU, and it is all that I have that I can give YOU. But it is YOURS, please take it, use it for YOUR Glory! Love to all!
Thursday, January 12, 2012
28, 27, and 26
Life gets away from me about 3 days at a time it seems. :) Jay and I had our 12 year anniversary on Tuesday. We had a smoothie from smoothie king on Tuesday night. He didn't like it very much. I should have kept with the small one. It was too much, I was so full I could have popped! It was a very good day though. It was a good weekend and we had a nice time to just sit and chat for a little bit. Funny how time slips away from you when you aren't paying attention.
Yesterday was Wednesday and we had a chance to sit and talk for a little bit again. It was good, I felt like I was a little harsh on Jay, but I really felt like GOD was impressing for Jay to listen. Jay worked 12 hours yesterday, he was supposed to take off next week, but he can't due to deadlines. I just told him that Hunter can't be taught to be a man every other weekend, or a few days a couple of times a year. And he needs his daddy. We need our preacher! Jay is our preacher. He can't give what he doesn't have, especially if he is all dried up himself! So when he came home for lunch today, he said that they had gotten the breakdown and had to take some vacation time. Praise GOD!
Trim was supposed to come in today, but it won't be in till tomorrow. Gabby starts voice lessons today, I am so happy for her. Also, Maggy starts back, an hour long class between the two of them. Thank you JESUS it is all at the same time!
GOD has really been speaking to me about faith, and how much I believe in HIM. Do I believe that Hunter can live with us? Do I believe that JESUS is bigger than a mama who loves her son a whole lot?! Well, I do! If we don't pay for Hunter going to harvest school then that is just like saying he isn't going! We have to pay for him a place, then we have to get him a passport. LORD, we need YOU!! We can't get through this without YOU!!! The only person who could get through a mama to her son is YOU! HELP LORD!!
Not sure what is going on with fast, my head feels kinda weird. I don't think that I have ever felt this physically attacked in my life. But JESUS is worth it! It is super cold today! The men came today to service our ac/heating unit. New part and $110. later we are all thumbs up! I read this in a book (one we have to read for harvest school) yesterday.
Yesterday was Wednesday and we had a chance to sit and talk for a little bit again. It was good, I felt like I was a little harsh on Jay, but I really felt like GOD was impressing for Jay to listen. Jay worked 12 hours yesterday, he was supposed to take off next week, but he can't due to deadlines. I just told him that Hunter can't be taught to be a man every other weekend, or a few days a couple of times a year. And he needs his daddy. We need our preacher! Jay is our preacher. He can't give what he doesn't have, especially if he is all dried up himself! So when he came home for lunch today, he said that they had gotten the breakdown and had to take some vacation time. Praise GOD!
Trim was supposed to come in today, but it won't be in till tomorrow. Gabby starts voice lessons today, I am so happy for her. Also, Maggy starts back, an hour long class between the two of them. Thank you JESUS it is all at the same time!
GOD has really been speaking to me about faith, and how much I believe in HIM. Do I believe that Hunter can live with us? Do I believe that JESUS is bigger than a mama who loves her son a whole lot?! Well, I do! If we don't pay for Hunter going to harvest school then that is just like saying he isn't going! We have to pay for him a place, then we have to get him a passport. LORD, we need YOU!! We can't get through this without YOU!!! The only person who could get through a mama to her son is YOU! HELP LORD!!
Not sure what is going on with fast, my head feels kinda weird. I don't think that I have ever felt this physically attacked in my life. But JESUS is worth it! It is super cold today! The men came today to service our ac/heating unit. New part and $110. later we are all thumbs up! I read this in a book (one we have to read for harvest school) yesterday.
Monday, January 9, 2012
31-30-29 combined
Trying to keep up with the blog is hard to do! Saturday left me feeling like I had run out of steam for sure! We came home and Jay and I measured for the trim. Base boards, crown molding, and door casings. Ordered today! (Monday!) Thank YOU JESUS, this is almost finished! It will all be delivered on Thursday and Jay will be off on Friday so we can spend some time painting and getting it ready to put up, house complete! NO DEBT!!! YAAY JESUS!! Now for YOUR great name, and YOUR fame, please sell it!
Sunday, Jay and I got to spend a lot of time talking about different things. It was so sweet, sometimes we get so busy with things that we tend to neglect each other. It had been a while. He has been so busy with work, and it takes him away a lot. Sunday morning JESUS gave me a dream. It was kinda strange, and I remember waking up and thinking, "LORD, what was that about?" Let me tell you about the dream and then I will tell you what HE said it means.
My ex husband Steve asked me to marry him. I said yes, without hesitation. But I didn't have to pick out one thing, make one decision. He did everything. I didn't have to pick a dress, food, flowers, music, not even who my bridesmaids were or a date! He did it ALL. People kept coming up to me and saying stuff like, your wedding is going to be so beautiful and I said. "Well, how do you know?" And they all said, "We saw it on twitter!" I was like, "Wow, I'm not on twitter." Hmmm. Anyway, it was the most beautiful wedding I have ever seen! It was like I was seeing it through someone else's eyes. When I woke up, I said, "LORD, what was that about?" And HE told me, "Laura, you got the people mixed up. You are the bride, and JESUS is the Groom, remember the story in the bible?" I said, "Yes FATHER." HE said, "JESUS takes care of everything when HE marries you, HE doesn't want to date you, HE desires to marry you at the perfect time, forever! HE will take care of even the smallest details!" I was so amazed!! There were some Iris people in the dream, and I really feel like JESUS will pour the Holy Spirit out on us while we are in Africa! I am so excited! Thank YOU JESUS!!
We started back to school today, it was pretty busy. At the end of the day, I did get to spend a little time in everything though. Maybe not as much as I wanted to, but it was some. And Jay had some orange juice tonight. Praying that his system tolerates it better than mine did. Had a smoothie king smoothie on Sunday night cause my muscles were so weak, I couldn't do anything. I got the one with the highest protein. It was so good! I had some juice today, my mouth just feels so nasty. Detox is the hardest part. I had some soup in a cup tonight. I don't know why it has been so hard this time vs. last time. I feel as if satan is physically attacking my body. Jesus told me this morning. "Laura, it isn't about you not eating, it isn't about you being hungry, it is about you spending time with ME. Spend time with ME." Yes JESUS, YES!!!
Tomorrow is our anniversary, Jay and I will be married 12 years. I never thought that we would ever make it through the things that JESUS has brought us through. I am so indebted to HIM, forever! HE restored our marriage. HE covered my sin with HIS blood. I don't understand why, at all. But I accept YOUR gift humbly. And I beg YOU FATHER, use me. I am YOURS. We should've been dead and divorced, but your Mercy was poured out on us and here we are! 12 years! wow! And getting ready to go to missionary school in Mozambique, Africa in under 6 months! And that was the one place I said I never wanted to go! WOW! Thank YOU JESUS. It is only by YOUR Grace!! Please lead us LORD. We desire for our path to be YOUR path! Use us please!
I put up 500 pictures of days past on facebook on Friday. So many people have been looking at them. LORD, I pray that YOU use the pictures to piece our family together. My moms family is so scattered, and JESUS, they ALL need you!!! Please help LORD.
Sunday, Jay and I got to spend a lot of time talking about different things. It was so sweet, sometimes we get so busy with things that we tend to neglect each other. It had been a while. He has been so busy with work, and it takes him away a lot. Sunday morning JESUS gave me a dream. It was kinda strange, and I remember waking up and thinking, "LORD, what was that about?" Let me tell you about the dream and then I will tell you what HE said it means.
My ex husband Steve asked me to marry him. I said yes, without hesitation. But I didn't have to pick out one thing, make one decision. He did everything. I didn't have to pick a dress, food, flowers, music, not even who my bridesmaids were or a date! He did it ALL. People kept coming up to me and saying stuff like, your wedding is going to be so beautiful and I said. "Well, how do you know?" And they all said, "We saw it on twitter!" I was like, "Wow, I'm not on twitter." Hmmm. Anyway, it was the most beautiful wedding I have ever seen! It was like I was seeing it through someone else's eyes. When I woke up, I said, "LORD, what was that about?" And HE told me, "Laura, you got the people mixed up. You are the bride, and JESUS is the Groom, remember the story in the bible?" I said, "Yes FATHER." HE said, "JESUS takes care of everything when HE marries you, HE doesn't want to date you, HE desires to marry you at the perfect time, forever! HE will take care of even the smallest details!" I was so amazed!! There were some Iris people in the dream, and I really feel like JESUS will pour the Holy Spirit out on us while we are in Africa! I am so excited! Thank YOU JESUS!!
We started back to school today, it was pretty busy. At the end of the day, I did get to spend a little time in everything though. Maybe not as much as I wanted to, but it was some. And Jay had some orange juice tonight. Praying that his system tolerates it better than mine did. Had a smoothie king smoothie on Sunday night cause my muscles were so weak, I couldn't do anything. I got the one with the highest protein. It was so good! I had some juice today, my mouth just feels so nasty. Detox is the hardest part. I had some soup in a cup tonight. I don't know why it has been so hard this time vs. last time. I feel as if satan is physically attacking my body. Jesus told me this morning. "Laura, it isn't about you not eating, it isn't about you being hungry, it is about you spending time with ME. Spend time with ME." Yes JESUS, YES!!!
I put up 500 pictures of days past on facebook on Friday. So many people have been looking at them. LORD, I pray that YOU use the pictures to piece our family together. My moms family is so scattered, and JESUS, they ALL need you!!! Please help LORD.
Friday, January 6, 2012
Wagner Prophecy for 2012
I hear the Spirit of the Lord saying: “I am ushering My people to greater heights and greater realms of Glory in 2012. It is time to arise and take your place as agents of change and carriers of My presence. This is going to be a fast paced year as I initiate change from the beginning of the year until the end. Take a deep breath and get ready for a year of maximum impact.”
“ Do not be caught up in fear or worry but move in confidence and authority. I am releasing the government of God in the earth and I am commanding divine order to come upon the Kingdoms of the earth. Do not resist change for it is necessary for me to take you where you are going.. It is now time to possess all that I have purposed for you. Do not compromise and do not back down.”
“I am the Lord that responds. I am responding to faith, hope, love, and to the desperation of My people. Angels of Rapid Response stand at the ready in this season to expedite the word of the Lord. Call to me and I will answer. I have not turned my face or heart away from My people but on the contrary I stand ready to act upon My promises.”
“Align yourself in My word, with My word, and by My word. This is the year of “I told you so...” What I have spoken to you I will do and I will do it swiftly. It is time to proclaim and claim My goodness and My promises. I am lifting the heavy burdens off of your shoulders and releasing the anointing that destroys every yolk and stronghold.”
“A year of Access is upon you, I Am granting you access to my excess. I AM the Lord of more than enough. My hand is not to short, My ears are not deafened, My heart has not wandered away from you. I tell you once again, Ask, Seek, and Knock. Ask and I will give you the desires of your heart, the nations for your inheritance, and the lost for your reward. Seek Me and you will find me when you seek after me with your whole heart. Knock and the doors to your new day will be opened. This is the year of abundance. I am releasing abundant grace, abundant love, and abundant life. Everything I am and everything I have is yours. Act upon my promise, Activate faith, Accelerate obedience, Answer the call, Allow me to take charge, Abandon yourself to obedience, Ambush the enemy with your praise and Advance my Kingdom.”
“Brace yourself for the best. Be ready in season and out of season. Believe me for what you have never seen. Bare one another’s burdens. Be bold as a lion and bounce back up from past defeats and disappointments. 2012 is a year of breakthrough and breakout. It is time to go beyond where you have ever been, bombard the gates of hell and break every man made barrier. I have purposed My blessings to over take you My beauty to overshadow you and My breath to propel you beyond your wildest dreams and expectations.”
“2012 is going to be a year of completion. I am putting my finishing touches on many of the things that I have started. As it goes with the CHURCH so shall it go with the nation(s). Let your convictions be stronger than your comfort. I am correcting the moral compass of My church and of this nation and establishing a new true north. Come back to the place of consideration. Consider one another with love and good works. Consider your ways and come back to the place of complete reliance on Me. Commit yourselves once again to faithful men and women. This is a year of convergence. Come together with and for greater purpose than ever before. Stay connected to a steady stream of My presence and with each other. Conquer your fears and deal with anything that would steer you of course. You are more than conquerors you are priests and kings. Creative miracles are going to be captured on camera for all the world to see throughout this year”
“Do not allow doubt, deceit, dilution, dillusion, or disappointment to delay or detour your destiny. This is a year of determination. I am determined that My church has everything I paid for over 2000 years ago. Be determined that nothing is going to stand in the way of you and me in 2012. This is going to be a year of deliverance. People and nations shall be set free from dictators and demons. I have disarmed powers and principalities. Demonic dynasties have been demolished. The season of delay has ended and you have now entered the season of the “special delivery”. Be willing to go deep, do not merely settle for the safety of the shallows but come to the place where deep cries out to deep. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desire of your hearts in 2012.”
“This is the year to embrace what I am doing in the earth with expectation. Envelope yourselves in My presence and eradicate anything that would try to compete with My place in your life. Envision yourself standing at the brink of your promise as I expand your territory and enhance your vision for this coming year. Do not be entangled in the cares of this world but earnestly seek My face. I Am eager to meet with you and equip with you with the secrets of eternity in the months ahead.”
“Do not fear but keep your eyes and your faith focused on Me. This is going to be a year of extreme favor for those who have remained faithful. I am fortifying families throughout this year and have commanded this to be a year of the Father. Fathers are about to come to the forefront and take their rightful positions in the nation, in the church, and most of all in the home. Forerunners are emerging and forging ahead, preparing the way of the Lord and releasing the next wave of awakening and revival in the earth.”
“The government is established upon MY shoulders. I Am bringing the Government of God to the government of this nation and many others in 2012. This year the elections will not be decided by a vote by a voice. The elect of God are being commissioned to determine the elections of 2012. The church will either choose a Saul or David. This is the year to GO! It is no longer on your mark, get set, and wait! I command you to Go. I am restoring the GO in the Gospel. It is time to once again speak “Grace, Grace” to the mountains around your lives and churches. I am activating My gifts in unlikely places in the year to come. A key to changing the economy is giving. Give your way out of debt, give your way out of lack, give your way out of poverty. Angels of generosity are coming along side My church to release heavenly treasures. The Goodness and Greatness of God are going to be put on display like never before in the year ahead.”
“ I declare that this is going to be a year of health for My people. The sun of righteousness is rising once again with healing in His hands. Holiness is not an option it must become priority. Honor is being restored to the Body of Christ and to many leaders who were once counted out. 2012 is going to be known as year where true Hope is restored and healed. Hope will not disappoint in 2012! A harvest of 4 billion souls are about to come into the Kingdom of God over the next 2 years.”
“This New Year I am giving you an invitation to invade the impossible. I Am going to bring back identity and integrity back to the church, the nation, and especially to leaders. It is time to initiate change and come out of hiding. Do not be isolated or inundated with things that do not matter in the scheme of eternity. I will illuminate the darkness with the light of the Kingdom through my sons and daughters in the year ahead. This is a year to invest in the harvest that is already at hands. I am releasing inventions, innovations and ideas that will bring forth the cures for diseases and riches into the hands of My people who will not hoard it for themselves but will heap it upon those who will win the harvest. ”
“Justice and Righteousness are the foundations of My throne. This is going to be a year of Divine Justice on behalf of Israel, the unborn, the poor, the orphan, and the widow. I am tipping the scales of justice in America and beyond by bringing salvation to those in gross darkness. This is a year for every joint to supply and take their place in the body of Christ.”
“I am restoring the fruit of Kindness to My people. It is My kindness that draws people to repentance. I am calling true gatekeepers to come to attention to guard My people and My house. Keep your eyes fixed upon me, give me your full attention, lift your face toward heaven where your help truly comes from. This is the year that I am releasing the Keys of David to those who are men and women after My own heart.”
“Lift up your voices and let My praises be heard among the nations. It is time to lift Me up and I will draw all men unto Myself. Let your light shine before all men do not keep it hidden. Love one another. Until you learn how to Love each other and those I have placed around you, you will never fully receive the harvest I have prepared for you. You will never win what you do not love.”
“ Mercy ministries clothed in the power of God will see nations won in a day. 2012 is a year of the miraculous power of God. I am releasing mountain moving faith. This will be the year of the manifestation of your miracle.”
“Call on My name and Nothing will be impossible for you in 2012. I will never leave you or forsake you and I will supply all that you need. I am more than enough. Today I have come to make all things new. To everything there is a beginning and an ending. This is the year of New Beginnings and also a time for you to act like new “beings” you are a new creation live like it and act like it. This year I am bringing an end to self-reliance and demanding that your trust, hope, and focus is on me and not on man.”
“I have ordained this to be a year of open heavens and open doors for the Body of Christ. Many are about to emerge out of obscurity and brought to the forefront to further the cause of My kingdom. Obedience is a core value that must be exercised in order for My promises to be accomplished. Be like the men of old in Hebrews 11 that obtained a word from God and framed their world with it. Divine order is coming to the church, to governments, and to the earth in 2012.”
“This is the year to pursue love and abide in My presence on purpose. My power will flow on the winds of your worship and with the sounds of your praises. Purity is a magnet for My presence and favor. This is a year to commit yourself to the secret place of prayer like never before. I am going to overshadow you with the peace that passes all understanding even in the midst of the storms that may blow.”
“You will win if you don’t quit. I am your qualifier remember it is not how you start but how you finish that counts. I am doing a quick work in the earth in 2012 and will cause nations to stand in awe of who I Am.”
“I have called you as ministers of reconciliation and ambassadors of restoration. I am in the mood for redemption. I am redeeming time, families, resources, and callings throughout 2012 and bringing about the restoration of all things.”
“Everything that can be shaking will be shaken in 2012, so that the unshakeable Kingdom will remain. An unshakeable Kingdom has an unshakeable economy, you are a part of that economy. I am bringing stability and security to My people and revealing the treasures in darkness and secrets in hidden places. Household Salvations shall be common throughout 2012 even to 3 and 4 generations.”
“It is time for transformation. Transformation begins with you and then it will flow through your cities, regions. and nations! I am thrusting you out into the unknown. Trust is the key that will determine your thrust. It is your time and your turn to receive all that I have for you throughout this year. I am not only bringing you to the tipping point but I am making you a tipping point in 2012.”
“This will be know as the year of THE LORD who is unstoppable and uncontrollable. I am releasing a supernatural anointing to understand the times. The Lord is Uniting His Church and is about to unveil a remnant people who are united in one heart and one purpose.”
“I am calling My church to come and live behind the veil. Come and see what I see. My vision is far greater than yours. It is time to see the value of My Son and of My church. This is going to be a year of visitation for those who hunger and thirst after me. My virtue and life is about to fill My people like never before.”
“Watch and Wait as I open wide the windows of Heaven to pour out wisdom and wealth. This is going to be a year of fresh wind that will carry the whisper of My still small voice. Wash yourselves in the word and live worthy of the High Calling I placed upon you!”
“I am bringing the the young people and youth to a whole new level in the days to come, many have yielded themselves and cried out for more of Me and I am responding to their plea without limitation or hesitation. There is going to be a worldwide revival ushered in and maintained by the “next” generation”
“It is time to leave the places of comfort, ritual, and predictability. The Zeal of the Lord is returning to the people of God and to His House.”
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“ Do not be caught up in fear or worry but move in confidence and authority. I am releasing the government of God in the earth and I am commanding divine order to come upon the Kingdoms of the earth. Do not resist change for it is necessary for me to take you where you are going.. It is now time to possess all that I have purposed for you. Do not compromise and do not back down.”
“I am the Lord that responds. I am responding to faith, hope, love, and to the desperation of My people. Angels of Rapid Response stand at the ready in this season to expedite the word of the Lord. Call to me and I will answer. I have not turned my face or heart away from My people but on the contrary I stand ready to act upon My promises.”
“Align yourself in My word, with My word, and by My word. This is the year of “I told you so...” What I have spoken to you I will do and I will do it swiftly. It is time to proclaim and claim My goodness and My promises. I am lifting the heavy burdens off of your shoulders and releasing the anointing that destroys every yolk and stronghold.”
“A year of Access is upon you, I Am granting you access to my excess. I AM the Lord of more than enough. My hand is not to short, My ears are not deafened, My heart has not wandered away from you. I tell you once again, Ask, Seek, and Knock. Ask and I will give you the desires of your heart, the nations for your inheritance, and the lost for your reward. Seek Me and you will find me when you seek after me with your whole heart. Knock and the doors to your new day will be opened. This is the year of abundance. I am releasing abundant grace, abundant love, and abundant life. Everything I am and everything I have is yours. Act upon my promise, Activate faith, Accelerate obedience, Answer the call, Allow me to take charge, Abandon yourself to obedience, Ambush the enemy with your praise and Advance my Kingdom.”
“Brace yourself for the best. Be ready in season and out of season. Believe me for what you have never seen. Bare one another’s burdens. Be bold as a lion and bounce back up from past defeats and disappointments. 2012 is a year of breakthrough and breakout. It is time to go beyond where you have ever been, bombard the gates of hell and break every man made barrier. I have purposed My blessings to over take you My beauty to overshadow you and My breath to propel you beyond your wildest dreams and expectations.”
“2012 is going to be a year of completion. I am putting my finishing touches on many of the things that I have started. As it goes with the CHURCH so shall it go with the nation(s). Let your convictions be stronger than your comfort. I am correcting the moral compass of My church and of this nation and establishing a new true north. Come back to the place of consideration. Consider one another with love and good works. Consider your ways and come back to the place of complete reliance on Me. Commit yourselves once again to faithful men and women. This is a year of convergence. Come together with and for greater purpose than ever before. Stay connected to a steady stream of My presence and with each other. Conquer your fears and deal with anything that would steer you of course. You are more than conquerors you are priests and kings. Creative miracles are going to be captured on camera for all the world to see throughout this year”
“Do not allow doubt, deceit, dilution, dillusion, or disappointment to delay or detour your destiny. This is a year of determination. I am determined that My church has everything I paid for over 2000 years ago. Be determined that nothing is going to stand in the way of you and me in 2012. This is going to be a year of deliverance. People and nations shall be set free from dictators and demons. I have disarmed powers and principalities. Demonic dynasties have been demolished. The season of delay has ended and you have now entered the season of the “special delivery”. Be willing to go deep, do not merely settle for the safety of the shallows but come to the place where deep cries out to deep. Delight yourself in the Lord and He will grant you the desire of your hearts in 2012.”
“This is the year to embrace what I am doing in the earth with expectation. Envelope yourselves in My presence and eradicate anything that would try to compete with My place in your life. Envision yourself standing at the brink of your promise as I expand your territory and enhance your vision for this coming year. Do not be entangled in the cares of this world but earnestly seek My face. I Am eager to meet with you and equip with you with the secrets of eternity in the months ahead.”
“Do not fear but keep your eyes and your faith focused on Me. This is going to be a year of extreme favor for those who have remained faithful. I am fortifying families throughout this year and have commanded this to be a year of the Father. Fathers are about to come to the forefront and take their rightful positions in the nation, in the church, and most of all in the home. Forerunners are emerging and forging ahead, preparing the way of the Lord and releasing the next wave of awakening and revival in the earth.”
“The government is established upon MY shoulders. I Am bringing the Government of God to the government of this nation and many others in 2012. This year the elections will not be decided by a vote by a voice. The elect of God are being commissioned to determine the elections of 2012. The church will either choose a Saul or David. This is the year to GO! It is no longer on your mark, get set, and wait! I command you to Go. I am restoring the GO in the Gospel. It is time to once again speak “Grace, Grace” to the mountains around your lives and churches. I am activating My gifts in unlikely places in the year to come. A key to changing the economy is giving. Give your way out of debt, give your way out of lack, give your way out of poverty. Angels of generosity are coming along side My church to release heavenly treasures. The Goodness and Greatness of God are going to be put on display like never before in the year ahead.”
“ I declare that this is going to be a year of health for My people. The sun of righteousness is rising once again with healing in His hands. Holiness is not an option it must become priority. Honor is being restored to the Body of Christ and to many leaders who were once counted out. 2012 is going to be known as year where true Hope is restored and healed. Hope will not disappoint in 2012! A harvest of 4 billion souls are about to come into the Kingdom of God over the next 2 years.”
“This New Year I am giving you an invitation to invade the impossible. I Am going to bring back identity and integrity back to the church, the nation, and especially to leaders. It is time to initiate change and come out of hiding. Do not be isolated or inundated with things that do not matter in the scheme of eternity. I will illuminate the darkness with the light of the Kingdom through my sons and daughters in the year ahead. This is a year to invest in the harvest that is already at hands. I am releasing inventions, innovations and ideas that will bring forth the cures for diseases and riches into the hands of My people who will not hoard it for themselves but will heap it upon those who will win the harvest. ”
“Justice and Righteousness are the foundations of My throne. This is going to be a year of Divine Justice on behalf of Israel, the unborn, the poor, the orphan, and the widow. I am tipping the scales of justice in America and beyond by bringing salvation to those in gross darkness. This is a year for every joint to supply and take their place in the body of Christ.”
“I am restoring the fruit of Kindness to My people. It is My kindness that draws people to repentance. I am calling true gatekeepers to come to attention to guard My people and My house. Keep your eyes fixed upon me, give me your full attention, lift your face toward heaven where your help truly comes from. This is the year that I am releasing the Keys of David to those who are men and women after My own heart.”
“Lift up your voices and let My praises be heard among the nations. It is time to lift Me up and I will draw all men unto Myself. Let your light shine before all men do not keep it hidden. Love one another. Until you learn how to Love each other and those I have placed around you, you will never fully receive the harvest I have prepared for you. You will never win what you do not love.”
“ Mercy ministries clothed in the power of God will see nations won in a day. 2012 is a year of the miraculous power of God. I am releasing mountain moving faith. This will be the year of the manifestation of your miracle.”
“Call on My name and Nothing will be impossible for you in 2012. I will never leave you or forsake you and I will supply all that you need. I am more than enough. Today I have come to make all things new. To everything there is a beginning and an ending. This is the year of New Beginnings and also a time for you to act like new “beings” you are a new creation live like it and act like it. This year I am bringing an end to self-reliance and demanding that your trust, hope, and focus is on me and not on man.”
“I have ordained this to be a year of open heavens and open doors for the Body of Christ. Many are about to emerge out of obscurity and brought to the forefront to further the cause of My kingdom. Obedience is a core value that must be exercised in order for My promises to be accomplished. Be like the men of old in Hebrews 11 that obtained a word from God and framed their world with it. Divine order is coming to the church, to governments, and to the earth in 2012.”
“This is the year to pursue love and abide in My presence on purpose. My power will flow on the winds of your worship and with the sounds of your praises. Purity is a magnet for My presence and favor. This is a year to commit yourself to the secret place of prayer like never before. I am going to overshadow you with the peace that passes all understanding even in the midst of the storms that may blow.”
“You will win if you don’t quit. I am your qualifier remember it is not how you start but how you finish that counts. I am doing a quick work in the earth in 2012 and will cause nations to stand in awe of who I Am.”
“I have called you as ministers of reconciliation and ambassadors of restoration. I am in the mood for redemption. I am redeeming time, families, resources, and callings throughout 2012 and bringing about the restoration of all things.”
“Everything that can be shaking will be shaken in 2012, so that the unshakeable Kingdom will remain. An unshakeable Kingdom has an unshakeable economy, you are a part of that economy. I am bringing stability and security to My people and revealing the treasures in darkness and secrets in hidden places. Household Salvations shall be common throughout 2012 even to 3 and 4 generations.”
“It is time for transformation. Transformation begins with you and then it will flow through your cities, regions. and nations! I am thrusting you out into the unknown. Trust is the key that will determine your thrust. It is your time and your turn to receive all that I have for you throughout this year. I am not only bringing you to the tipping point but I am making you a tipping point in 2012.”
“This will be know as the year of THE LORD who is unstoppable and uncontrollable. I am releasing a supernatural anointing to understand the times. The Lord is Uniting His Church and is about to unveil a remnant people who are united in one heart and one purpose.”
“I am calling My church to come and live behind the veil. Come and see what I see. My vision is far greater than yours. It is time to see the value of My Son and of My church. This is going to be a year of visitation for those who hunger and thirst after me. My virtue and life is about to fill My people like never before.”
“Watch and Wait as I open wide the windows of Heaven to pour out wisdom and wealth. This is going to be a year of fresh wind that will carry the whisper of My still small voice. Wash yourselves in the word and live worthy of the High Calling I placed upon you!”
“I am bringing the the young people and youth to a whole new level in the days to come, many have yielded themselves and cried out for more of Me and I am responding to their plea without limitation or hesitation. There is going to be a worldwide revival ushered in and maintained by the “next” generation”
“It is time to leave the places of comfort, ritual, and predictability. The Zeal of the Lord is returning to the people of God and to His House.”
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Day 33 -32
WOW, things are starting to be pretty amazing again! Feeling much better! Allergies are going away. GOING AWAY! Almost no cough! Yaay!!! Thank YOU JESUS! Yesterday was a little harder than today. I was pretty weak, when we fast I usually have the hardest time the first week. Jay always seems to do ok, he is still working and not having any trouble. Last year when we fasted we just did 1 cup of chicken broth every other day for a while till we couldn't anymore, and then we did juice also. I am not sure yet what will happen today, but tonight after dark we are going to have more than water! YAAY! It has been 7 days with just water, and that is T O U G H! But JESUS is so worth it and HE knows our heart!! Oh how we Love HIM! We are praying about smoothies or chicken broth and juice, or soup that is just liquid. Not sure. Praying JESUS will speak to us.
Today makes 9 days till we register for Harvest school!!!!!!! I am a little excited! Ok, A LOT!!! And 4 days till our 12th wedding anniversary! Thank YOU JESUS, the only reason that we are still married is because of YOU, and YOUR Mercy!
Had bible study last night at We Will Go. Revelation 3. JESUS wasn't very politically correct, HE just spoke the truth! Things that really stuck out to me were, HE told the church of Sardis to WAKE UP! (Rev 3:2) And (Rev 3:3) HE told them to go back to what you heard and believed at first; hold to it firmly. Repent and turn to me again! HE wasn't real happy with this church in general. In HIS letter to the church in Philadelphia HE was pleased with them! HE said "What HE opens, no one can close, and what HE closes, no one can open." (Rev 3:7) HE said that they had obeyed HIS word and did not deny HIM. (Rev 3:8) HE also told them this: Because you have obeyed MY command to persevere, I will protect you from the great time of testing that will come upon the whole world to test those who belong to this world. (Rev3:10) HE said that HE would write on them the name of HIS GOD. (Rev 3:12) I wonder what that is going to look like?! Sweet Barbie said, "I always picture the movie Toy Story where all the toys have Andy written on the bottom of their foot! I wonder if we will have YAHWEH on the bottom of our foot?" We all laughed! I mean that would be cool! :) HE was pretty upset at the church in Laodicea. HIS correction for them was the harshest! They were luckwarm. Boy was I ever lukewarm with religion! I pray my Faith in HIM is contagious to all of those around me!! For real! WOW! HE said (Rev 3:20) Look! I stand at the door and knock. If you hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in, and we will share a meal together as friends. Hmm, JESUS will sit down and eat with us! I can't wait!!! LORD, I want to be so close to YOU!! After bible study Chris (formerly one of the biggest drug dealers in Jackson) stood up and sang a song for us that turned into another song, Amazing Grace. He starts school soon, college! WOW GOD! YOU are amazing!! What an honor to call him our brother!
When we came home I shared David Wagners prophecy for 2012 with Jay, he had a really hard day at work yesterday. It was amazing. JESUS is beginning to speak again!!! I will post it separately! GOD has big plans for 2012!! Thank YOU JESUS that you haven't forgotten us!!
Today has been pretty amazing, this morning since I didn't have to cook breakfast I just laid in the bed and spent some time with JESUS. I prayed for an hour and a half! GOD just kept bringing people to mind, and I would pray for them as best as I knew how to. It was amazing! And then while I was praying I would just stop and worship HIM for a while. Thank YOU JESUS for such an amazing time with YOU!!
When I was done praying, JESUS told me to get up and weigh. So I got the wii out. WOW, I have lost 10.6 pounds! My mouth literally fell open! Thank YOU JESUS, it is all by YOUR great hand! I had the girls weigh too and Maggy is the first one of us to be at a healthy weight, she is down from 130 to 92 pounds! WOW! Thank YOU JESUS!!
Jay's doing better today. HE said that GOD hasn't talked to him yet. He is dry, dry, dry. JESUS, please give him YOUR living water! He said that he was having to read a verse 3 or 4 times before he was getting it. I prayed for him a good while this morning. For more fruits of the Spirit! Still praying for Baptism of the Holy Spirit for Jay, I and all 3 kids! Thank YOU JESUS, I know it is coming!!
4 books came in today that we have to read before we go to Africa. Thank YOU JESUS, we can all start reading one!! :)
Thursday, January 5, 2012
36-35-34
Haven't been feeling very well. Just weak and water doesn't taste very good. And it is making me feel kinda nautious. Tuesday night we went to prayer downtown, it was beautiful! Been praying for specific keys, keys to my joy, peace. JESUS showed it to me today, it isn't mine. It is HIS. HIS joy is my joy, HIS peace is my peace! When HE lives inside us, HE blesses us with all of those fruits of the spirit! The key is for HIM to dwell in me always! I am praying about baptism of the Holy Spirit! I desire it a LOT. I am praying JESUS fill me! What an honor!
Last night we went skating. There were 9 kids there! The kids had fun! We got to sit with Jeff and share a lot. It was cool to be able to encourage him. He and his family are all precious! I have been having a really hard time with the fasting. I was thinking of giving up! WHAT?
JESUS came to me during the night and I had a dream that I ate two brownies, one peanut butter, and one chocolate. Afterwards, I felt SO bad! I thought, now I went all that time and I didn't complete what I was supposed to do! JESUS was telling me to press on. HE is worthy!!!!!! So I did, today is a little better, tomorrow after dark we are going to have apple juice and chicken broth. Complete water for 7 days, then juice, water, and broth for 7 days. And we are praying about what to do next. I still don't have a clue about what to do about Hunter. I don't think that Jay does either, we can apply for school in 10 days!!!!!! I know that we will be accepted cause GOD said to go! We really need clarity about Hunter though. I almost felt like JESUS was telling me today that we were going to have him and live in love house.?????????? WOW. That is something. Still praying, if it is JESUS, HE will tell Jay. I have been sleeping a lot better, and I had Maggy tell me a little bit ago that me losing weight this time was very obvious way sooner than it was last time. That she could really tell. JESUS said last year HE would make me new from the inside out. Praise GOD HE is!!!
Last night we went skating. There were 9 kids there! The kids had fun! We got to sit with Jeff and share a lot. It was cool to be able to encourage him. He and his family are all precious! I have been having a really hard time with the fasting. I was thinking of giving up! WHAT?
JESUS came to me during the night and I had a dream that I ate two brownies, one peanut butter, and one chocolate. Afterwards, I felt SO bad! I thought, now I went all that time and I didn't complete what I was supposed to do! JESUS was telling me to press on. HE is worthy!!!!!! So I did, today is a little better, tomorrow after dark we are going to have apple juice and chicken broth. Complete water for 7 days, then juice, water, and broth for 7 days. And we are praying about what to do next. I still don't have a clue about what to do about Hunter. I don't think that Jay does either, we can apply for school in 10 days!!!!!! I know that we will be accepted cause GOD said to go! We really need clarity about Hunter though. I almost felt like JESUS was telling me today that we were going to have him and live in love house.?????????? WOW. That is something. Still praying, if it is JESUS, HE will tell Jay. I have been sleeping a lot better, and I had Maggy tell me a little bit ago that me losing weight this time was very obvious way sooner than it was last time. That she could really tell. JESUS said last year HE would make me new from the inside out. Praise GOD HE is!!!
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
day 38-37
We ended up going to the skating rink on night of day 38. Our really sweet best friends run it. Can I say that they are awesome! They have encouraged us so much! Most of their family is doing a daniel fast! The youngest of the kids running after sweet JESUS!! Thank YOU FATHER for raising up mighty warriors for YOUR kingdom!! Best part of all was when we were done, we all got to pray together! What an awesome time! Thank YOU JESUS!!
Today we went downtown for hands and feet, where we share donations that are brought to Church with neighbors that don't have clothes. JESUS, please put YOUR mighty hand on Wanda! What a precious soul she is! I know YOU are perusing after her like nobody's tomorrow. Had a sweet time of prayer and worship. I WANT MORE OF YOU JESUS!!! We came home for a while, I am so weak, I feel pretty nautious, LORD help me please! YOU alone are strong!! I need YOU LORD!! Had a sweet time of prayer tonight with an amazing family that JESUS has given us! Thank YOU LORD!!
Today we went downtown for hands and feet, where we share donations that are brought to Church with neighbors that don't have clothes. JESUS, please put YOUR mighty hand on Wanda! What a precious soul she is! I know YOU are perusing after her like nobody's tomorrow. Had a sweet time of prayer and worship. I WANT MORE OF YOU JESUS!!! We came home for a while, I am so weak, I feel pretty nautious, LORD help me please! YOU alone are strong!! I need YOU LORD!! Had a sweet time of prayer tonight with an amazing family that JESUS has given us! Thank YOU LORD!!
Monday, January 2, 2012
Day 40-39-38 combined
We stayed at Restoration for a couple of days. I can get on the internet there, but it just seems so sweet to just sit and soak in the presence of JESUS. We went prayer walking on New Years Eve through the Farrish Street District. It was so beautiful, I even caught a picture of a walking person with a hula hoop on a pedestrian sign! HAHA! Guess that means that there will be hula hoopers everywhere! LOL!! It was a beautiful time, lots of gun shots after dark.
I pray JESUS that after dark next year on New Years Eve we will hear praises and singing unto YOU!!! LORD, you are so strong! I am so weak, my flesh is trying to take over, I am battling allergies, or should I say satan. JESUS is stronger! Oh, how I love HIM!!! More than anything in this world, I seek HIS face! LORD, YOU allowed Moses to catch a glimpse of YOUR Glory! Please LORD, I want YOUR face, not YOUR hand! I want to be so in love with YOU that it hurts! Please LORD! Help me to love YOU more! At midnight, we prayed for JESUS peace to come upon all. Then we went to sleep, oh the rest with JESUS!!!!
Sunday we had worship service, and it was beautiful. Terry gave his testimony, boy how I feel so broken for him. He said something that I can't get out of my mind. A woman can't raise a boy into a man, it takes a man to do that. JESUS, there are so many young boys out there without their daddys in their lives at all or everyday. Even so many whose daddys are in their lives, but one or both parents are so consumed with work that the child is left alone a lot. Hunter is one of them. JESUS, help! LORD, how can he become a man if no one teaches him? I ask YOU LORD, please teach him LORD! LORD, change us so that we can be better teachers of YOUR great plan.
Today we woke up and came home. It was pretty uneventful. Came home and read on the reading list for Harvest school. Jay is reading peace child and can't put it down. It is pretty weird to see him with a book in his hand. LORD, YOU can change that too. I pray that YOU give him a thirst to read the books! It has been a good day. :)
I pray JESUS that after dark next year on New Years Eve we will hear praises and singing unto YOU!!! LORD, you are so strong! I am so weak, my flesh is trying to take over, I am battling allergies, or should I say satan. JESUS is stronger! Oh, how I love HIM!!! More than anything in this world, I seek HIS face! LORD, YOU allowed Moses to catch a glimpse of YOUR Glory! Please LORD, I want YOUR face, not YOUR hand! I want to be so in love with YOU that it hurts! Please LORD! Help me to love YOU more! At midnight, we prayed for JESUS peace to come upon all. Then we went to sleep, oh the rest with JESUS!!!!
Sunday we had worship service, and it was beautiful. Terry gave his testimony, boy how I feel so broken for him. He said something that I can't get out of my mind. A woman can't raise a boy into a man, it takes a man to do that. JESUS, there are so many young boys out there without their daddys in their lives at all or everyday. Even so many whose daddys are in their lives, but one or both parents are so consumed with work that the child is left alone a lot. Hunter is one of them. JESUS, help! LORD, how can he become a man if no one teaches him? I ask YOU LORD, please teach him LORD! LORD, change us so that we can be better teachers of YOUR great plan.
Today we woke up and came home. It was pretty uneventful. Came home and read on the reading list for Harvest school. Jay is reading peace child and can't put it down. It is pretty weird to see him with a book in his hand. LORD, YOU can change that too. I pray that YOU give him a thirst to read the books! It has been a good day. :)
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